Inspired To Live

Part 2

~Him~

“Don’t come any closer!” I warned “I’ll jump off this very second if you do” I looked down once again behind me where I will soon lie, dead.

The adrenaline rush is going to be amazing and it’ll be a quick death. No slow torturing death. I mean who is stupid enough to do that when you can do this?

It’ll be goodbye cruel world and it will be glad to get rid of me too. I’m not wanted here, there’s no point for me to stay here. When would a dumb, ugly orphan with no future be wanted? That’s right, never.

I’ll be doing everyone a favour; I’m not loved, or liked for that matter. I having no idea who my family are and I have no friends. I’ve been so lonely and no one even bothers to ask how I get my scars on my wrists. Apart from the girl who is standing in front of me. But I’m sure she only wants gossip so when I’m gone she’ll have something to talk about. It felt good, to have someone to talk to. But it pains to think that it’s all just an act. I wonder why she done it though. It was probably a dare. Right now I don’t really care. Gosh even some poetry just before I go, how lovely.

No one else bothers to deal with me, they just ignore me, see right through me. I’ve heard of people who suicide because of bullying. I wonder who hurts most, people like me or them. At least they get acknowledged, people know of their existence. I don’t, people don’t talk to me unless if it’s necessary. People never look at me, they only see me. I smile to say it doesn’t bother me, but it does, alot.

I serve no purpose.

There’s no reason for me to stay.

Just one jump and it’ll be all over. All the pain, the hurt, the loneliness and the exhaustion of being strong will be gone. It’s such a simple solution for everything.

“Stop.” the girl started to say interrupting my thoughts “I don’t know what to say but you’re really stupid.” Wait was that going to be her last words for me? Telling me something I already knew and was totally obvious?