It's not that I'm lonely.
It's not that I'm ashamed.
But I hate to see you yet again,
Cry my name out in vain.
It pains me to think
that I would still be there for you,
that I would still care for you.
But would I?
Would I really...
I don't know, I don't think I would.
Would I?
After all the insecurities I had.
All the insecurities you gave me.
You helped change me even more.
It hurts...
Yeah it hurts to realize..
That I didn't change on my own.
Did I change for the better?
Or for worse?
I really don't know...
How can I help myself..
If..
I can't truly love myself.
Doesn't matter how many times..
That I lie to myself.
And it doesn't matter,
How much times I feel...
I'm being lied to.
Cause I hate you.. yet I love you.
I do?
