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Three - Code Jane

      2 days since I didn't kill Black Vickler. I'm back at the Born camp, I'm back home. But being here.... It's hell on earth. I almost can't stand it. I can't think clearly, all I can think of is fucking Black Vickler.
       Her fingers against my skin, her sexy hips, her innocent face. Everything about her. It's sick. It's wrong. But it feels so right. I hate feeling like this. This girl. This print off. She's driving me crazy. Every step I take away from her hurts.
       Literally. I've had to stay on the north side of the compound to keep from passing out. I can feel when she walks farther away from me. It hurts. I wonder if she can feel it.
     FUCK no. You hate her Code. Remember. She took your father from you. She stole part of your family and turned him into one of those.... Things.
      Right now I'm leaning against the north wall. I'm skipping PT(physical training) but seeing as I'm the most fit person here I don't think it really matters. I wouldn't be able to concentrate anyways. I think my mom is starting to notice. I can always feel her eyes on me. Even now.
        Lifting my eyes from the ground I look towards the Cliffs and there she is. Sitting on her perch. Probably wondering why I didn't kill Black and King Jane. I know everyone wonders. I'm sure they think I'm a coward. I was in there way too long and came back with no wounds and no victorys.
    "Hey Code!" Turning my head I notice Valley waking over. She sways her hips in a way that usually has me hard just thinking about.
      But it does nothing for me now. I hope she doesn't notice.
      When she's about a foot away I wrap my arms around her waiste and peck her lips.
      "How's my baby doll doing today?" I ask as I bury nose in her hair, hoping to easy my pounding headache. It doesn't.
      The satisfied sigh that leaves her lips makes me frown. Only my mate should be making that sound around me..... Wait the fuck? Mate? FUCK Code! Stop thinking about that Printed bitch! I missed Valleys answer I realize as her hands travel to my abs and lower.
       "Baby you're so tense." I can hear the arousel in her voice but it just makes me sick. Doesn she not realize I'm not into this?
      Pushing her away I glare at her, discusted. I can see the hurt on her face but it doesn't register. All I can think about is Black. Her hands on my abs. Her hands traveling lower. I can't do this. It's not fair to Valley. I need to know what's going on. I need to know what Black did to me. Without so much as a glance in Valley direction I head for the main gates.
        Each step is excruciating. As I near the gate I realize my mother must have been watching because there she stands. All 5"2 of her. Frightening woman. With a blank face I stop at her shoulder.
       "Son." That's it? Glancing down I see an envelope in her hand. Slowly she slips it into my hands. Shaking my head I finally look at her face. The fear I see there. The regret...... It nearly knocks me off my feet.
      I open my mouth to ask what's wrong but she quickly shakes her head. She gives me a hug before turning to leave.
      Shocked I stand were she left me before I can't take it and walk out the main gates.
      Slipping the envelope into my pocket I take a deep breath and run north.