My reality

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My name is Jackson,but people call JJ. m from Cincinnati Ohio. That's basically it I mean I'm what you call the shy guy. I have a a lot of friends mostly female.According to certain people,my dad,I'm not masculine enough. He tells me how when he was my age he always had pussy,and how he use to sell drugs and he and his friends you to jump people while they were walking home from school.He tells me that I need to be a man and man up about shit and this that and the other.If being a man means cheating on your wife with random white ugly bitches,beat people up for no reason,and selling drugs,then Id rather be myself.Sorry my dad just really pisses me off. At school I'm really popular among the girls. The guys look at me weird and think that I want them and try to stay away from me.Everybody at school thinks m gay.They may be rite because I guess I daydream about boys.But I can't be,where I'm from if you are abnormal then a lot of people look at you weird. But o don't even know for sure if I like men.Ever since I was like 5 I use to always think about hope I wanted certain people.I would just daydream in class about boys.My mom and dad were always hateful towards people who were gay.I was scared that if they found out I would have been beaten.So I've always kept this to myself.I use to cry at night because I thought I was abnormal and that I deserve to die, I still do sometimes.I've never had an attraction towards women ever.I've even I had sex with this girl name Traci but I didn't like it. Im hoping and praying that I become normal.

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