Midnight Thoughts

Love 101

First of all, why do you want to forget? Dahil ba masakit? Dahil ba wala na kayong pag-asa? Dahil hindi ka na niya mahal? Dahil wala na siya sa'yo? Dahil gusto mo nang tulungan ang sarili mong mabuhay uli ng walang iniintinding heartbreak?

Isa ba diyan yung dahilan mo? O bored ka lang talaga sa buhay mo? In any case, proceed. This might help you or bore you. After all, these are just my humble opinion.

And make sure you know what you want to forget. Because if you wanna forget every single memory of him/her, dude, dapat nagka-retrogade amnesia ka na lang.

I won't romanticize this too much, this is real world. Specially if you're a teen who's probably still in high school and excited to fall in love. There's nothing wrong with falling in love, seriously. But not everyone can handle the pain. I've seen people who broke their hearts and wanted to end their lives too. There's people who aren't really in love, they just love the idea of being in love. That's different and you should know which one do you really want.

Hindi naman sa feeling expert ako or whatever, feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. Falling in love with someone is deep, passionate, and painful. It's not love if it isn't painful. It's not love if you don't feel passionate about that person. It's not love if you don't want to dig deeper for the sake of knowing him/her. So, kung sa tingin mo in love siya sa'yo pero hindi naman siya interesadong malaman ang mga gusto mo subukan mo nang lumaklak ng realidad ngayon pa lang. Sabi sa'kin ng best friend ko masarap daw magmahal, totoo naman. Sabi niya kaya daw masakit kasi may rejection, may naiiwan, may umaasa. Hindi naman talaga maiiwasan 'yun eh. Kung naiiwasan 'yon de sana walang bitter di ba? But remember that love wouldn't be this magical if you don't feel pain. Ano 'to landian lang? Laging no strings attached? Don't waste your time. Yes, love takes you by surprise but please if you're not ready, don't take the risk. Mahirap pumasok sa high school ng may hang over dahil broken hearted ka. Mahirap ding mag fake smile kapag nandyan na siya. So for the sake of your sanity, try to get cautious. Love makes you impulsive, I know. I've been there.

The idea of being in love. Clarification lang 'to, hindi ikaw 'yung mahal niya. Repeat, hindi ikaw 'yung mahal niya. Ang gusto lang niya 'yung kilig feeling lang. Hearts and flowers gano'n. Hindi ko naman siya mai-label as pag landi dahil nakakaramdam naman siya ng love, hindi nga lang sa'yo. Oo kailangan kong ulit ulitin para matauhan ka. Sayang naman effort ko di ba? Kung high school ka pa at feeling mo kaya mong balansehin ang love life mo de gora lang. Pero kung hindi, please lang baka pag sisihan mo 'yan sa college. Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong wag kayong mag mahal sa high school days niyo. Ang akin lang wag kayong excited tumanda, utang na loob! Pre-marital sex, ring a bell? Remember he/she might not be in love with you so don't give up your flag kahit lalaki ka pa.

Last, love making/sex/fuck. Let's be blunt here, since feeling ko naman at feeling mo din naman siguro mature ka na, let's talk about pre-marital sex especially in high school. First, ang sex ay ginagawa lang ng mga taong kasal at handa sa responsibilidad. Highschool ka pa lang teh! Hindi dahil nagka period ka na pwede ka nang mag-asawa o mag-anak! Maawa ka dun sa baby. Kung hindi ka rin lang naman kasing yaman ni Henry Sy, wag na lang. That's an innocent life. Please. Pero kung nandyan na, utang na loob wag na wag mong ipapa abort! Hiwalayan mo na yung syota mong gago kung 'yon ang gusto niya. Second, use condoms. Shit lang, kung di niyo kayang pigilan ang libog niyo, mag condom na lang kayo. Kung walang pambili ng condom, wag na wag kang mag pre-cum sa loob niya, may sperm pa din yon. O kung di mo talaga mapigil, mag calendar method kayo. Third, wag na. Maawa kayo sa magulang niyo. Kaninong buhay ba ang sinisira niyo? Love?! Hindi love 'yan kung yung nasa baba ang ginagamit. Tandaan niyo girls, dalawa ang ulo ng lalaki at bihira nilang gamitin yung nasa taas. Hindi love 'yan kung sisirain niyan ang buhay niyo. Hindi trust 'yan kung hindi lang ikaw ang kinakama niya. Oo, harsh. Iyan naman ang gusto niyong mga teen ager di ba? Excited nga kayong pumasok sa mundo ng matatanda eh. Sa sobrang excitement niyo gumagawa pa kayo ng bata. Accept harsh realities and love should make it bearable not poison you. It's not true love if its toxic.

Walang masamang mag-commit basta kaya niyong panindigan. Don't forget your friends, by the way. Love them too. Because when you turn into a horrible train wreck, they will be there not that f*ck buddy of yours who broke you in the first place.