A Thousand Years Journey

Chemistry 101

Love, such an amazing feeling. Those sweet thoughts, the butterflies and tingly sensations in your stomach. The feeling that you can't live without someone and can't bear to be apart from them.

Their touch, kisses, and warm hugs are so intense in your mind that you'd smile all day. Jennifer and I were also a crazy couple like our friends Leo and Julie. We'd often argue about small things; mostly stupid stuff, but we'd always figure things out and make up in the end.

We would send "Good night" texts and would always say "This is the last message", but we'd get so irritated when the other wouldn't reply back. We were so crazy in love, it reminded me of couples in romantic movies. How infatuated they were together.

Even when they fought, you could see their love always sparked at the right moment. THAT's what Jennifer and I have. When school was about to start, we enrolled at the same university. Despite our busy schedule, we made time for one another, for movies, dinner nights, or simple strolls in the park. It was a good year for me and Jennifer. We laughed and got drunk more than a few times.

We met more friends. Kim, who migrated from Korea.Russell, who just moved in from California. Nancy, from this little town in North Carolina and Stacy, who was born and raised here in the windy city.

Two winters had passed, and come to think of it, I was so busy it was like I didn't even notice the first drops of snow. I remembered before leaving the comfort of my home, I wanted to see and catch my first snowflake. That didn't happen, it seemed like every winter was just another season to me. I wasn't the same person anymore. Jennifer and I began drifting apart.

Our feelings for each other began to dwindle.I felt depressed, but never like this before. I felt like tomorrow was never going to come. Colors now seem to fade where they once glowed. I was jealous when I saw Jennifer with a new male friend.

I first told myself "They're friends and nothing more", but they spent more time with each other. I was no longer in the picture with her, as she wouldn't return any of my calls or reply to any of my texts to her. What was going on? I remembered the first times we couldn't take our hands off one another.

Julie and Leo hosted their annual Valentine's Day party. In the evening of the party, I walked alone, I sat alone, I ate alone. There she was, my Jennifer, entering the dining room with her new boyfriend, Mark. I couldn't bear to look at the both of them.

Though it felt like yesterday, my happiest moments became the worst times of my life. At first, I tried to work out our differences, but she was no longer available for a movie and our dinner nights were taken away. We grew apart and we no longer felt the same for each other. Well, she no longer felt the same way towards me anymore.

We became total strangers. There were times I would sit across her and she avoided looking into my eyes, acting like I no longer existed. She wouldn't even notice me, she didn't feel my pain. Tears rolled down my cheeks. Oh how I miss when she'd wipe them when I cried. My very first heart break.

I found myself so lonely and Valentine's Day is just around the corner. I confronted her.

"What is wrong?" I asked.

"I really don't know how to fix this", she replied.

The room began to fill up with people we knew; they tried their very best to change the topic, to steer me and Jennifer to any different conversation. Avoiding anything that had dealt with heartache, but she and I still ended up in the same spot.

I bit my lips to shut up, and wanted to excuse myself from the party. I felt so alone, though I tried to force myself not to, I couldn't help but cry. I ignored every tear drop. Leo and Julie wanted to cheer me up, but they couldn't.

I felt like I was dropped inside this glass room, and the air got vacuumed out, leaving me breathless and trying to gulp air. My heart beated so loud and fast, it was about to explode. The need to be isolated hit me so hard, I wanted to be alone.

I decided to take a walk and sat by myself in the park. Learning to fall in love for the first time is hard, but it is unbearable to mend a broken heart. I cried hysterically. I had flashbacks of Jennifer and I walking and sitting here, talking about our future together. They are gone now, nothing but silly dreams.

tonight was the most epic night for me, i was so devastated, tears would just flow down my cheek. and seeing all of them heart broken its was just silence across the room. Jennifer would step out and i would follow her, try to force her to tell me what i did wrong. Even her dont know the reason why, so selfish of her to hurt someone who gave their heart, to believe that love is this pure feeling that can conquer even the saddest moment in your life. i was wrong, love is the worst ever for me.

When there seemed to be no hope, suddenly, the unexplainable happened.

"Wow, you turned to be alright".