4 Months Ago

Someone Like You

"Ano? Tayo pa ba?"

"Ewan ko sayo! Bahala ka sa buhay mo!"

Dear Robert,

4 months ago, it ended.

It was over.

There will always be two versions of how we broke up from our love story.

Because for you, 4 months ago, YOU walked out of my door in life.

In contrast, for me, 4 months ago, I was the one who closed my door on you.

But the bottomline is, 4 months ago, it ended.

I will never forget the memories we shared.

What happened 4 months ago, how your answer to my question made me get rid of you and end your part in my story --- for good.

How I finally realized that I had to save myself from that relationship.

I have to admit this, it was a painful process. But I still managed to rise again. That was my worst heartache ever, my most painful experience with you, the times when I would struggle to live one day, when all I did was cry and reminisce our moments together.

Yet, 4 months after, here I am ...

Wiser. Stronger. Better than before.

There were times when I'd miss you and long for your presence.

But it's normal, I know.

You played a very major role in my life and I wouldn't be who I am right now if it weren't for you.

Well, 5 years from now, I will still find myself remembering you. Because whether I like it or not, you will always be an important person in my life because of what we had 4 months ago.

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My question is, will I ever find someone like you?

Someone who would wait for me in my class and would carry my books. So that he can take me home.

Someone willing to eat with me sa Lomihan sa harap ng High School.

Someone willing to dance with me in the Dance Troupe Room.

Someone who would sing me a JaDine song even though he knows how badly he can sing.

Someone who can make me laugh, kahit korni, nadadaan na lang sa pagdala ng joke.

Someone na may sense kausap. Pero medyo mysterious, yung gugustuhin kong basahin ang pag iisip at mathrill.

Someone who would update me about my favorite teleserye, On the Wings of Love whenever I'd fail to catch the episodes.

Someone who would comfort me in my problems. Where I can show who I am in front of him.

Someone who will be with me while fangirling about James Reid and Nadine Lustre.

Someone who would cook Adobo or Sinigang for me.

Someone who has the initiative to ask me to go to church.

And someone who would do what it takes to pass my father's standards,

Gain my mother's trust.

And win my heart.

Too many memories in a short span of time, Robert.

And my answer is this --- I will never find someone like you.

I will never find someone like you because I will find someone BETTER THAN YOU.

That someone will not lie to me. Will not betray me. Will not make lame excuses to me.

That better someone will be faithful with me.

He will be sincere, who REALLY means it when he says "I Love you."

That someone will make efforts to hang out, not just with me, but also with my friends.

That someone will be with me in making better memories.

That someone will not fool my father's standards.

He will not break my mother's trust.

And he will not hurt my heart.

That someone will be better because he will not hurt me.

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It has been, uhmmm, about one year since we last saw each other. We only had 4 months relationship, and yet it took me a year to write this and be totally over you.

I wish you could see me now. I wish you had an idea of what's going in my life right now.

I wish you knew that even though, I am not in a relationship, I am actually living a better life WITHOUT YOU.

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for that 3 weeks of panliligaw and 4 months of being together.

Thank you for being with me through ups and downs.

Without you, my world would be different.

Thank you for all of the joys and pains you gave me.

Thank you for all of the unforgettable memories.

For the experiences.

Thank you for breaking my heart.

Thank you for the lessons.

Thank you for the heartache.

Thank you for waking me up.

For making me realize that I deserve more -- In love and in life.

Honestly, I'm totally over you.

The mourning period is over.

You'll always be a part in my life. You were and you will. You're Robert, my ex. Di na mababago yun.

I wish we could be friends again. I would happily welcome you, once again, in my life.

But not as before.

Now as friends.

No break ups.

No arguments.

No commitments.

Just friends?

Just friends.

Goodbye. See you soon. :)

Yours before,
Alexis

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THE END OF LETTER OF ALEXIS.

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