4 Months Ago

The Reason

ROBERT'S SIDE OF THE STORY

"Ano? Tayo pa ba?"

"Ewan ko sayo! Bahala ka sa buhay mo!"

Dear Alexis,

Yes, 4 months ago, it ended.

It was over.

I red your letter and your words pierced my heart. It hurts to the point that I am also writing you this letter.

You said that there will always be two versions of how we broke up from our love story, if that's what you call it.

You were wrong about that. Damnly, wrong about that. You said that for me, I walked out of your door.

No, I never thought of that. I was just patiently waiting by the doorstep, for you to let me in.

Yet, you did not. You totally closed the door and left me dumbounded, without even hearing my side.

"--What happened 4 months ago, how your answer to my question made me get rid of you and end your part in my story, for good."

These was your exact words. So, it was all about your question, and my answer that day.

It was all my fault. I was an idiot for not fighting for you. And I hate myself for what I've done.

If only I could bring back time, I would never do what I have done. It was my biggest mistake for letting you go. But I want you to hear my side, too.

September 01, 20**
Tinawagan ako ni Mama. She said I have to quit my studies and be with her in the States. I was so anxious that time, confused, of what to do. Alam mo namang, di ako in-acknowledge ng magaling kong Kano na ama diba? And I was shocked ng nalaman kong magkasama na pala silang dalawa dun sa America, at gusto din nila akong makasama.

At first, ayoko. Iniisip kasi kita. Kung anong mararamdaman mo. Pero, wala eh, inuna ko pamilya ko. Diba nga, ikaw nagturo sakin nun? Dahil sa kakapanuod natin nung On the Wings of Love.

Ilang araw din akong nawala nun dahil inasikaso ko ang mga papeles ko. Di kita sinabihan kasi akala ko magagalit ka. Hinayaan na lang kita. And 2 days before my flight, bumalik ako sa school para makita ka, to finally say goodbye.

As expected nagalit ka, And you asked me the questions,

"Ano tayo pa ba?"

I was shocked with the way you reacted. Pero ginamit ko na lang yung galit mo sakin para tapusin ang relasyon natin.

And that was when I answered,

"Ewan ko sayo! Bahala ka sa buhay mo! "

Pero nung nakita ko ang luhang pumatak sa mata mo, parang gusto ko ng bawiin ang mga sinabi ko. And yet, I did not.

F*ck myself!

Alam mo bang iniyakan din kita? Ang corny pero oo! Umiyak ako. Nahihiya akong sabihin sayo to.

Dahil pinagsisihan ko lang na iniwan kita. Pinagsisihan ko lang na pumunta pa ako ng America.