Mine & My Friends' Quotes

Sleeplessness

I hate those sleepless nights, the ones where you go to bed tired, but lay awake until 3 am, finally fall asleep, only to wake up at 5 am. Because in those nights, my overthinking takes over, and suddenly I'm blaming myself for anything that's ever gone wrong, or I'm imagining what could've happened, or I'm just laying there, with the hope that if I fall asleep, maybe I won't wake up. My tendency to overthink gets the best of me, and there's nothing I can do to stop it, nothing I can do to keep the thoughts happy. So, on those nights when I can't sleep, I will overthink everything in my life, and "wake up" feeling like there's no point in going to school, other than keeping my grades up because I'll get in trouble if I don't. So, if I ever text you in the middle of the night, just bear with me, because I'm probably blaming myself for that one time this happened, or for that one person who left my life without warning, or for that time someone died because I had chosen to go to school that day, instead of stayng home. And all those nights, they add up quickly. Then, suddenly, you realize how much you think you've screwed up, and how many more times you will screw up in the future. And to say the least, it's kinda depressing. So, for anyone who doesn't understand why someone that doesn't sleep much is usually depressed/sad, whether it be at school, at work, hell, even at home, this is why. It's because they're drowning in their own thoughts while watching everyone around them breathing just fine. And there isn't a damn thing that can change that.