Scripted

You

I want to scream at you,

I want you to hear the feelings that I can hardly express,

Do you know that pain!

What you've caused of me,

Look at me,

I'm not worth looking at but I want you to see the monster you've created.

Don't you see that I hate the taste of the words on my mouth,

The taste of defeat,

I'm broken, so broken and shattered that I can hardly live anymore.

I don't want to live like this.

One thing I beg of you, please!

I'll get on my knees,

I'll scream the hallelujah,

Anything, I beg of you please take me out of misery!

I want to be happy!

But no one gets it,

No matter how many mirrors I shatter, 

They don't get that the self-hatred I feel was all because of you.

You built me up,

You called me beautiful,

You told me you couldn't live without me,

Then you screamed at me to leave!

That I was nothing to you!

How am I supposed to feel,

Don't you understand?

It's not all my fault,

I'll take the blame for my words, my actions, everything I did wrong,

But how could you murder me when all I wanted was to trust you?

I loved your scars,

I loved them with a passion that I can't quite explain,

And the only words I have left to say is why?

How could you?

Why did you?

I loved you,

And the worst part is,

I don't think I'll ever stop.