I wake up from the sun pouring out from the window across the room. Why is that stupid shade open? I swear I closed it.
Whatever. I'm just going to close it and then go back to bed. I don't want to wake up. Not just yet.
I try and move from the spot I am in and swing my legs over the bed, but I can't.
I slowly look down at my body. I find an arm wrapped around my waist, then I realize that my legs are entangled with another persons. And I swear to God that I just about had a heart attack when I felt someone's breath on the back of my neck.
"What the hell!" I shout immediately getting out of the bed.
I run to the corner of the room. I can hear the other person groan, I guess I just woke them up.
This situation is so confusing. Did someone come into the room in the middle of the night and decide to cuddle with me? Did I sleepwalk into town and bring someone home?
None of it makes sense.
"Phil?" I hear in a groggy voice.
That voice. I know that voice.
Too paralyzed with fear to even move, I watch as the person gets up from the bed.
No. It can't possibly be.
I manage the ability to speak, "Dan?" I say in disbelief.
He rubs the sleep out of his eyes and looks to me. "Phil?" He yawns and stretches before fully opening his eyes. When he looks towards me the look in his eyes turn from tired to concern. "Hey, are you okay?" He asks, coming toward me.
He places his hand on my forearm. I push it away, "Get away from me!" I yell, trying to back up even further into the corner. Which is impossible because I'm already so far up against the wall.
It's not him. This has to be an impostor.. that looks.. exactly like him.
"Woah." Dan says, a look of surprise on his face. He backs up a little, keeping his distance, but still somewhat close. "Phil, calm down. Okay?" He says, slowly coming closer to me.
I shake my head, "No. You can't be real. This isn't real. This has to be a dream." I say.
I slide my back down the wall and curl up in a ball. I'm trying to think of ways this could be possible, but I can't think of anything. All I know is that at the moment I'm scared, confused and I'm shaking so hard.
Dan kneels down next to me, trying to be as gentle as possible. "I don't know what you're talking about but I'm real Phil. I'm right here."
I shake my head, "No, no you're not. It isn't possible."
He looks into my eyes and grabs my hand. "You see? I'm real. This is real life."
I shake my head once again and look to the side, not daring to look at him. I felt his hand. I actually felt it. Maybe this isn't a dream.
But if it's not a dream, then what's happening?
"Hey, hey. Look at me." Dan softly says. He places his hand under my chin and turns my head. Making me look him in the eyes.
He leans over and kisses me softly. It takes a bit for me to kiss back, but eventually I do. I can't help it, I've been craving this for years.
The wish.
Oh my God, did that actually work?
As he slowly pulls away from the kiss, I take a deep breath, trying to calm myself down.
"Did that feel real?" Dan asks me. I don't answer, instead I just stare at him for a moment. I look at all of his features. He looks exactly the same.
His warm brown eyes, his messy curly hair, the tanness of his skin. It all looks exactly as it did before.
I can feel the tears in my eyes. "Dan?" Unable to stop it, I feel a tear run down my cheek. "Is it really you?"
Dan slowly nods, a smile creeping onto his face. "It's really me Phil.."
Before he even got a chance to say another word, I hug him, basically tackling him to the floor. He lets out an 'oomf' as he lands on the ground, me on top of him, but nevertheless he wraps his arms around me.
I bury my face in the crook of his neck as I begin to cry. "I missed you so much." I mumble.
"I still don't understand what you're on about-" He says. I cut him off, kissing him. Actually kissing him this time. I put all of my heart and passion into this kiss, making sure not to waste a split second of this moment.
I have five whole years without him, I need this.
Dan softly pushes me away, breaking the kiss. I sit up, now just straddling him. He laughs, "Are you okay? You seem way more affectionate this morning then you have in months."
A smile comes onto on my face as I wipe the remaining tears from my eyes. "I am so much more than okay right now, I don't think you even understand."
"But what happened Phil? Did you have a nightmare or something this morning?" He asks with a confused yet worried expression.
I shake my head, "Nothing, I- I just.." I take a moment to think of what I'm going to say.
How am I supposed to explain that he was dead for 5 years and now all of a sudden he's back without making me seem like a total maniac?
"You know what," I say changing the subject, which judging by Dan's expression on his face, he didn't like.
"I think we should get out of the house today." I start to stand up. "We always stay indoors, why not go see the outside world for once?"
Dan laughs, getting up from the ground as well. "You want to go outside? Instead of watching anime or something?"
I shrug, "Yeah."
Dan scoffs, "Okay, who are you and what did you do to Phil." He jokingly says.
I begin to laugh, fully taking this moment in. Dan is back. My Dan.
Thank God for that wish. I'm so grateful to have him back.
All I want to do right now is stare at him. It's so weird to have him in front of me again. I just feel like if I take my eyes off him for one second, he'll dissappear. And I don't want that to happen again.
Apparently I've been staring too long because Dan begins to talk, making me snap out of my trance. "What?" He asks. "You're acting like it's been an entire eternity since you last saw me."
If only you knew, Dan.
My smile grows larger, "Nothing." I say taking his hand, intertwining our fingers. "I just really love you." I say.
Dan gives a closed mouth smile back, his dimple showing. "I really love you too, Phil."
"Okay let's go." I say, dragging Dan out of his room. He stops me.
"Woah, hold on. Let me at least get dressed first." Dan says, going back into his room. I look down at my pajamas and then at Dans shirtless chest and sweatpants.
Oh yeah, I guess that's kind of important.
I watch as Dan starts to take off his sweatpants, his black skinny jeans laying on the ground in front of him.
I'm so happy. I'm so unbelievably happy that he's here.
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