The Boy Who Saved my Life.(an AmazingPhil fanfiction)

Chapter Four

This is a trigger warning. If you cannot read about self harm please skip this chapter. -XOXO The Author

I woke up with tears dried on my face and eyes puffy. I was done with this world. I was nothing without my mom. I was nothing anymore. I was nothing but a nuisance to myself and to everyone around me. All the attention that I got was out of pity anyway. No one really cared about me. I went to the shower and heart heavy with emotion I picked up the razor. I walked to where my unshaven fully clothed sleeping dad was laying on the couch with a picture of mom right next to him. I gave him a kiss and walked back to my room. I turned on my computer and looked through all of my pictures of my mom. When the pain was too much I lifted the blade and dragged it across my skin. I felt a sting as red droplets appeared on my wrist. I exhaled. The pain was overpowering my emotion. Feeling better in a twisted way I checked my email to find 3 missed messages from Phil.

 I know it hurts but it will get better.

Please don't do anything rash I would blame myself.

and finally

I'm so sorry about your mom. But hurting yourself won't bring her back.

I wanted to scream at him. Didn't anyone see what a wreck I was? I didn't need to hear that. I hadn't even accepted that my mom was gone until now. Overcome with powerful emotion I sat down. I would never talk to her again. I would never see her sweet smile or hear her laugh. I would never be able to cuddle with her when I felt crappy. I would never again see her long beautiful hair that she always let me play with even when I made it even more tangled. I would never be able to cry on her lap about things that upset me ever again.

I was done. I wanted out. I wanted to die. My mom was everything to me and she was gone. I looked down at the razor and my hand and cut myself again several times. I looked at a picture of my mom again. What would she say if she was here? I asked myself.

She would want me to be happy and wouldn't want me to hurt myself.

My computer dinged again.

Authors Note: So... things aren't going so well for Skye. On a slightly happier note I started to write a danfiction! Should I write it all and then publish all at once or should I write a chapter each week? Comment what you think.

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