-BTS imagines-

Hoseok

It was getting dark already but all you could do was cry. It was such a bad day. You were struggling with your studies and with your job. You felt so broken inside because of family problems and other things and you just couldn't stop crying. You were alone. You had no one. Of course you had your favorite person in the whole world, Hoseok. You've been dating him a year already but how could you call him now, him having a full schedule and being and idol. He had more important things to do.

You were at the bathroom floor crying your eyes out when you hear your phone ring. It was him, calling. You just ignore it. Time passes and he keeps calling you none stop until you decide to pick up with trembling hands.

-"{Y/N}! Why arent you picking up!? Im worried. Did something happen? Are you okay? Please tell me you're okay!"-

-"yeah...im alright...dont need to worry so much.."-

-"You are not okay, you sound like youve been crying...why..is something wrong? Im coming to your house right now!"-

-"No! Dont come, its not necessary, just keep practicing your comeback is near im not important.."-

-"How could you say your not important!? Im coming right away! Wait for me, don't you dare go anywhere!"

But before you could say anything he hangs up. He was coming here. You hated the though of him seeing you in this state. You decide to go out before he could get here.

You grab your coat and keys. With blurry eyes you open the door of your apartment and start going down the stares. It was a really cold night. Well it was almost December already. As you were going down the stairs the events that happened today go running through your mind. Those horrible words your mom said to you..were the ones that hurt the most.

You hated being such a sensitive person, thats why you just preferred to be alone. Until he came into your life. He was your little happiness pill; your sunshine. After all this time he was still the only one who could make you laugh hard and smile all the way. But you didn't want to become a burden for him, he was an idol.

As you finally start walking down the streets and breaking out of your thoughts you can hear loud but faint footsteps from behind you. Someone was running towards you. As you turn around you can see this tall handsome guy with flowing hair and short breath. He came. You were surprised because of how fast he came here.

"{Y/N} WAIT DONT GO!" he shouts.

But you start running away from him. There wasn't much people outside at this hour so it was easy to run without bumping into someone. As run while whipping up the few tears you had on your cheeks you could still hear Hoseok shouting your name. You saw the usual park near and decided to go there. But as you were turning you feel a hand pulling your coat and shoving your body against the wall.

"Ah!" you scream, thinking it was someone else. But it was him, covered in sweats and unable to talk. You lean in the wall and slowly fall into the ground. Oh no, he got you. How the fuck would you explain your actions. You hated the idea of you telling him your problems. After a while he recovered and kneeled in front of you but you avoided eye contact.

"So are you gonna tell me why did you run for me? Huh?"

You stayed quiet, your eyes looking in another direction.

"Hey, please baby, tell me. I know something is happening. You know I'm here for you and I'll always will" he whispers.

But you just keep ignoring him, holding the tears.

"{Y/N}!" he shouts with a serious face now.

"Stop okay! Stop! How could I ever tell you my problems when you have enough problems. How could I ever just drag you down when im feeling like shit. No, I cant. And I hate feeling this way but I cant help it. But that doesn't mean I have to make you worry or make you come running to me" you say as tears run through your cheeks.

"I hate feeling like shit...I hate feeling like I'm not good enough. This constant feeling, I hate it so so much. And I just want to ignore this feeling think otherwise but I cant and it sucks. I want to become someone happy, someone that can make you happy, but i constantly have this shitty feeling and i just...i just dont want to drag you down Hoseok, because your too precious for me and..and..."

"What are you saying?"

"And I just want to call you and be with you and hug you and stay with you forever but I cant. I cant. I cant ruin your future. But sometimes I just feel so damn lonely...and im alone and i hate it..." you say with a weak voice but stop after realizing what you said.

You quickly stand up and start running the other way but before you can he grabs your hand. He pushes you against the wall again and stares into your eyes.

He suddenly takes your head and kisses you by force. You struggle at first, tears running down your cheeks but then you just give in. At first the kiss was rough but then it became more soft as if he was kissing you with all the care in world. Now you both are short in breath and he pulls away slowly, staring right at you with a cold but warm gaze. His hands are still holding your cheeks and you can feel the warmth of his body in the middle of the night.

"{Y/N}...don't ever say such useless things. You were never alone and even if I wasn't there for you so many times, please forgive. Please, because i love you. I love you more than anything in the world and it hurts me just seeing you like this. Please baby" he whispers in his tender voice and hugs you afterwards. His hugs were magical, you thought. Because even though you were a wreck and you felt lost, every time he embraced you, you felt like you were home. You felt like you have finally found the one and only. Jung Hoseok.