Aly's POV
Fck! What the hell did I just say?! Sht you, Alyssa.
"A-Aly..."
"I-I'm sorry. Excuse me."
Iniwan ko sila sa loob. I just need some air. Ugh! Feeling ko hindi ako makahinga sa loob. Nandito ako sa may Field. Medyo madilim pa.
I have to admit, I miss her. I just do. I don't know. After what she does? I think I still love her. Nung nakita ko siya, I wanna hug her but I can't.
Then I saw Den. Nakikita ko ang pag-aalala niya sa mga mata. Ewan ko rin ba. Feeling ko matagal ko nang kilala si Den. She looks familiar. Nung nagkita kami, I have this strange feeling. I don't know. I don't know what this is. I think I...
"Tol..." inangat ko ang tingin ko. Si Gretch pala.
"Hm?"
"Okay ka lang?" tanong niya.
"Seriously? Do I look okay to you?"
"Sungit. Dinadamayan ka na nga eh." reklamo niya.
"Akala ko kasi wala na. Okay na ako." sabi ko sakanya. "Pero hindi pa pala."
"Kung bibigyan mo siya ng chance to explain, Aly. Maybe you'll understand" sabi niya.
"How can I? I don't even want to talk to her. I don't even know why I said those fcking words!" sabi ko dito. "Calling her Babe, again?! Sht! Why did she came back?! To ruin my life, again?"
"Know what Aly? I know you still have feelings for her. Kahit konti." sabi niya. "But there's someone who can change that."
Tiningnan ko siya. I don't get her.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Theres this one person who's special to your heart." what? I looked at her as if asking what is she talking about? "Oh come on, Ly. The way you look at her, iba eh. Minsan ko lang yun makita."
"Who?"
"Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga ka lang o ayaw mo lang aminin." sabi niya. Tiningnan ko siya ng masama. "Ang alam ko kasi matalino ka eh."
"Okay, fine! Hindi ko alam kung ano 'tong nararamdaman ko. I mean, I still love Rach, pero I'm not sure about my feelings with... you know who."
"Alam mo, Ly? Sure ka dyan sa feelings mo. Ayaw mo lang aminin kasi takot kang masaktan ulit." well, she has a point. But what should I do? "Why not try her? Malay mo, makalimutan mo si Rach."
"I don't want to use someone. I don't want her to get hurt."
"No, you won't. You'll learn to love her. Hindi siya mahirap mahalin, Ly." she tapped my shoulder. "Balik na tayo sa dorm."
"Una ka na. Sunod na lang ako." nauna na nga siya. Naiwan ako dito.
Why not try her?
Why not? For me, it feels like using her. I don't want to feel that way. Sakanya pa? She's so fragile. I don't want to hurt her. Siya yung taong dapat ingatan. Dapat mahalin ng tapat.
You'll learn to love her.
Hindi siya mahirap mahalin, Ly.
I know, pero paano kung hindi? Paano kung hindi ko siya natutunan mahalin? Edi masasaktan ko siya. Urgh! Look what have you done to me, Rachel! Naguguluhan na ako!
My phone rang...Si Ate Fille.
"Ly? Where are you? Ayaw sabihin ni Gretchen kung nasan ka. Nag-aalala na kami sa'yo dito."
BINABASA MO ANG
Until My Last Breath | AlyDen
Fanfiction"I love you. I'll hold on Until My Last Breath." -Dennise
