I Can't Love You

Prologue

I am pretty much the happiest girl alive right now. Today is the one month anniversary of the most popular boy in school, Harry Styles, and I. He told me to meet him in the gym at 2:50 after school today. I think he's gonna give me a present or something like that.

When I get to the gym I see Harry standing with another guy talking. I came a bit early because I excited to see what he needed me for. 

"Harry the bet is over, you can dump that ugly ass girlfriend of yours now." His friend says, I see him give Harry $30. My heart breaks a little. I hide behind the bleacher, listening to their conversation.

Harry nods, "I was gonna do it today but today is our anniversary, eh whatever. She is gonna be here in..." He checks his phone, "about a minute or so, you better leave now dude." His friend nods and runs off. I decide to walk out now and pretend this all didn't happen.

I can't believe this was all a stupid bet. Am I not worth enough for a guy to like me? I know I'm not the prettiest girl in school but I am totally not a doll that can be tossed around. When I get to him, I tap his shoulder. 

"Hey Harry!" I tried playing it cool and pretend I didn't hear the conversation between Harry and his friend. 

"Hey Megan! O need to talk to you..." Here comes the break up. "This," He motions his hands between us, "Isn't working out. I'm breaking up with you." My heart tore in half. It feels worst hearing the words leave his mouth.

"Harry, does that mean all the times you said that I was the best thing that't happened to you was a lie then?" Tears form in my eyes, "does that mean all of the times you've complimented me, hugged me, kissed me was just a game to you?" He keeps a straight face.

"No it meant something to me back then, just not anymore." He says bluntly. I almost ran away when he said that. I have a tendency to run away from my problems. 

"Every time you said 'Megan, you look beautiful today' you actually didn't mean it?" 

"I did."

"Was it another girl?" I ask him. Obviously it was a bet but I needed the truth to come out of his motuh.

He shakes his head, "No it wasn't."

"Was it a bet for $30?" I ask, glaring at him.

His eyes widen, "you heard us?"

I nod, tears flowing out of my eyes, "I heard everything. I can't believe you Harry, I actually thought our relationship was real. I thought, for once in my life, I actually found someone who cares about me. But I guess I;m wrong, you're just like any other guy at this school."

"No I'm not! I treat girls like a princess!" 

"I bet you do treat girls like a princess, you make them feel happy about themselves just so you can rip their heart out and stomp on it like it never meant anything to you."

"That's not true." He argues

"Oh yes it is! You play with girls hearts, I can't believe you. You don't even know how much you meant to me." I am full on crying now.

"You think I wanted to date you?" Ouch that hurt.

"You know what Harry? Why don't you just take all of your shit and go somewhere else? Why don't you just leave and go fuck some cheerleader! She's obviously a better girlfriend than me." Anger rushed through me. 

"I told you I don't go whoring around. I actually care about girls." Harry is so mad right now, if he were a cartoon he would have steam blowing out of his ears. "Just because someone payed me doesn't mean I regret it."  That stung.

"Why would you let someone pay you to date me?" I ask in a voice barely above a whisper. My anger  was replaced with weakness. 

"I was on debt and I needed money okay?"

"I actually thought you liked me."

"Why would I like a girl like you?" Tears stream down my face again. Harry looks at me and regret washes over his face. "I'm sorry Megan that's not what I meant." He tries to comfort me by hugging me but I push him away.

"The whole relationship was fake huh? Calling me beautiful was fake, saying I was perfect for you was fake, saying I don't need make up was fake. What else Harry?" I pause for a second to see if he would answer. "You just used me, forget it okay?" At this point I've given up. "If you regret the relationship so much then just forget it. Pretend like it never happened. 'Cause I surely will." 

"I do-" Harry starts.

I cut him off. "Just forget it okay? If I mean nothing to you than so be it. Have fun Harry Styles.Thanks for making my day." I flip him off and walk away.