You try to fit in with another group. You go out with them. You have fun for once. Then it switches round, you realise that they too knew how gross you are and they go off without you and have so much more fun. They post things on social media about it and you can't help but feel jealous. You thought they liked you. Were you completely wrong? That's when the what ifs kick in and you ask yourself a million questions. What if it was a trick? What if they all laughed at you after? What if you said something? Nothing feels fun about it any more.
I like being alone I guess but having no friends is different. Even the people who try and care can't help anymore. You feel selfish when you reject people but you know they're doing it out of sympathy. It just sucks.
