MisPrints

•Chapter 10•

I open my eyes.

I'm sitting on a chair with my head resting on my arms.

At first I don't move, I just sit and listen to the humming. My head is aching a bit but the ache is gradually fading away. And there's something else, something different? Like there's a big empty whole in my heart. A solid ache, like a block of metal is lodged inside me.

It feels like I should be crying, but... What is there to cry about? Why do I want to cry? There's nothing sad happening here...

I look around the white room that I'm sat in. There's not much in here. I've also never seen this room before.... It must be one of the consultation rooms.

I'm sat at a white table, and on the table, I notice a glass of water. There are some splashes on the table....

Have I been drinking it? 

I don't remember drinking it?

There is also a little plastic capsule lying empty and opened beside the glass. It's a tablet capsule. There must be tablets inside. I lift up the capsule to find it empty.

"Oh." I mutted aloud, realising that I must've already taken something. I don't remember taking anything.

And then it all begins to seep slowly back to me, the memories returning like a sponge soaking in water.

"Remember or forget." A man spoke at me, "take them to forget. You won't have to feel sad about it any more, you won't even remember what you're sad about. It's a lot more convenient. If you want to remember, just leave them."

But be sad about what? What was I sad about... before...

It must be a emotional blocking pill... To stop me feeling sad. But why was I sad? What happened that made me sad enough to make me want to forget it all!?

Suddenly the handle clunked downwards and and door opened. The man from before is standing there with a clipboard. It's green jumper guy.

"Remembered or forgot?"

"I....." I stammer.

I remember...that I had to forget...it's kind of both. I open my mouth like a fish, unsure of how to reply.

But what have I forgotten...

The man rolls his eyes and then strides towards the table and picks up the tablet capsule, shaking it upside down.

"Affirmative , she's wiped." He mutters into the device on his arm. It stutters and then flashes blue.

"Received."

"Wiped? What's wiped?" I mutter under my breath. I'm so confused what...!?

"You can go now, tell the next one to come in."

"What?"

"Go out and tell the next girl! For goodness sake you useless..." He composed himself and then opens the door for me and flicks his eyes towards it.

I go to walk out the door an then stop.

"What..... What did I forget?" I ask him.

He laughs with a sneer, "well...you chose to forget it so it was your choice, you chose to forget. It was your decision. Who am I to remind you, it was what you wanted!" He gives me a slight push towards the exit but I refuse to move.

"But what could be so bad.... That I wanted to not remember it!" I insist.

He ignores my question and pushes me through the door and slides it shut in my face. I walk down a corridor and into a room where there are a few other people who I recognise.