Nash Grier's Sister

Chapter 5

Durrani's P.O.V-

Why the hell do I have to be here?! This isn't fair. Looking around the room, it's fairly big. A queen sized bed, full body mirror on the wall, a huge ass closet, and a bathroom suite.

Knock knock

"Who is it?" I grumble from the bed.

"Sam." A deep voice rang behind the door.

"The hell is Sam..?" I whisper to myself. Walking over, I open the door to find a blonde boy with brown eyes.

Rolling my eyes, I say, "Can I help you?"

"Um, I- I just," he stuttered then coughed," I mean, I'm Sam, I live here too. I just wanted to know who the new girl was."

Damn. How many people live here?

"6. Well seven including you." He spoke, "Me, Nash, Hayes, Johnson, G, and Cameron.

I looked at him wide eyed. Did you I say that out loud?

"Yeah," The Sam boy laughed, "Yeah you did."

I blushed slightly. God damn it Durrani! This boy shouldn't have an effect on you! Not if he's your brothers friend.

"So are you gonna leave me alone or..." i spat, rolling my eyes.

"Oh, um yeah sorry, I'll go." His eyes saddened slightly, "But I also wanted to tell you that most of us are gonna be gone tomorrow. We have an event to attend." Then he was gone.

I closed the door and sat on the bed. Great, alone on my first day actually here. Well, I mean, not like I care. Nobody cares. Checking the time I see its, 9:30 pm. I yawn and get under the covers, too lazy to change.

In an instant, I drift to a dreamless sleep.

Next Day

I wake to the sound of a door slamming shut. They all must be gone then. I roll over and check my phone.

Jonah IMessage(3)

Jonah: What do you mean?
Jonah: You actually left?
Jonah: Please call me!

The last text was sent at 11 last night. My heart began to break into a million pieces as I pressed call Jonah.

One ring
Two rings
3 ri-

"Hello?"

"Jonah?" I squeak.

"D? Are you okay? Oh my god I'm so so sorry, please forgive me. Life has been hell without you. Where are you? I'll come get-"

"Jonah, you can't come get me." I stop him.

"What? Why not?" He asks, voice shaky.

"I'm in L.A."

The line was quiet for a second. But that second felt like forever till he finally spoke up.

"Wha- Why? Was it your mom? Who are you with?" It's a like a thousand questions with him I swear.

"I'm with my brothers." I struggle to say the last part.

"Oh.. Babe I'm so sorry." Jonah whispers.

"It's alright, I guess. I mean, I'm not in jail yet right?" I laugh slightly, half joking, half not.

"You'll be alright love. I have to go okay? It's only 7 here. I'm going back to sleep. Be good." And then the line went dead.

Alone again..

Throughout the day, I ate and sat around in my room. Writing songs and playing music. Checking the time once again, it's 10:09 pm. Tears stream down my face. Standing up, I walk up to the body mirror.

"I HATE YOU!" I scream at myself. Punching the mirror, my knuckles begin to bleed as the glass shatters to the ground.

Picking up a piece of glass, I hold it tight in my hand.

Durrani are you sure you want to do this?

My wrists begin to itch for the satisfaction. Tears flood down my face like a waterfall.

One slice for Hayes

Another for Nash

A third for my mom

The most meaningless people in my life.

"Fuck Durrani! Look at yourself!" My voice trembles as I look what I've done.

One more couldn't hurt

The voice in my head gets louder.

"STOP!" I scream at the top of my lungs. But to no one, only to myself. Soon, all control is lost.
The glass slices my skin, all pain relieved. It was like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

But perhaps, one went too deep. Blood ran down my arm, dark as the night sky. More and more poured from my arm.

"Shit, Durrani.." I mumble.

Black dots clouded my vision before I could make it to the bathroom. No no no, I can do this, stay awake.

My body became weak as I fell to the floor. Maybe this is the way I should die. Everyone would finally be happy. The family wouldn't be ashamed anymore.

This is it. This is the end.

The day I became the hated member of the family. The day I was born. Is now the day I will die.

"Happy birthday to me.." I mumble, before everything goes black.