My Fallen Angel

Chapter 1

The moment I realized that my life has been a great one. I took a liking to the world. It has been good to me. It seized my existence. I found out on why I'm here.

But time swiftly come to a pace. Racing against time as it passes by relentlessly. I was happy. I grew fond of my friends. My parents supported me. My life was perfect. Everything is.

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"What's wrong Essi..?" A high-pitched voice called within the air. I didn't turn on who it was, as I stared in a daze into the clouds.

Footsteps came in closer on the stairs. "Hello? Yo-hoo, anybody in there?" "Huh..?" I blinked out of my thoughts as I saw Rikka standing with a pout on her face.

"Are you okay? You've been spacing out for like 10 minutes. Did something happen to you or something..?" She asked as she sat down beside me on the ledge. "Honestly Essi, you should loosen up a little. You've been awfully quiet and been sitting here alone, staring at the clouds."

I don't why I'm sitting here alone..I just want to know how does it feel to be alone for awhile..

"Hey Rikka?" "Mm.." She paid close attention. I looked back at the sky. "Tell me..what's it like to be alone..?"

"Huh? You're really starting to get even weirder Essi. Looks like you got yourself a bump on the head." "I'm just curious, that's all..." I don't know..is being alone a good thing or not..?

I'm just one curious person..

"Well for me, no one likes to be alone. You know what they say, 'No Man is an island.' Besides we got a bright future up ahead." She said with a big grin.

Is being alone a good thing..

"Don't you have anything else to do, Essi?" I shook my head. I just want to be alone for awhile.

"I think the brains took the pop outta you. You don't usually ask this kind of questions before." She noticed.

...or a bad thing..?

I forced to let out a laugh. "Sorry I guess my mind's the one doing the talking."

"Hey Essi.." I turned to her. I held on the rail to prevent falling. "Promise me that you won't forget us okay..? Even after graduation, we'll always be friends. You hear me?" She held out her pinky.

"Promise?"

I looked at it for a minute. "What are you talking about..?! Of course I won't forget you." I put a grin.

But even if we promised each other, how long will that promise last..?

I placed my pinky into hers. "Promise." We agreed to that pinky promise that we won't forget each other. But day after day, things change. Rikka didn't notice me anymore. She suddenly hung out more with the popular ones. She didn't talk to me, play with me.

I went on the rooftop and saw her with her new friends. I ran towards her. "Hey Rikka!" "Hm? Essi..?"

"You know her..?" "Kinda.." Her friends whispered to Rikka. I looked at them with an oblivious look on my face. I don't why I'm being weird all of a sudden but what they didn't know was that I heard them talking about me.

"Hey Essi.." She smiled a bit. I noticed she has changed. A lot. I don't what I did to her but she just shut me out. "Listen Essi..there's something I have to tell you..." I felt a lump on my throat after she said that.

She continued. "I don't think we should be friends anymore."

My heart split in two. My mask almost broke but didn't intend to show it. "It's just.." She glanced at her friends then back at me. "...you're really nice and all, but they said that you're always alone and you've been wearing black all day." She said without even concern.

"So--" "We'll be going now. Bye bye." Her friends pulled Rikka away as I stood here on the rooftop, all alone.

I don't actually feel anything at all. Nothing. But deep inside, the pain began to grow.

I felt something wet on my face. "Tears..?" Why am I crying? How predictable of me. Why am I being like this..?

Is this how it feels to be alone..?