Unfaithful

Why The Hesitation

Ahmir Was Sitting In His Cocaine White Benz With Camille. He Was Thinking About Why A Lady Like Her Chose Drugs Over Her Daughter.

"So Did You Figure Out How You're Gonna Pay Me Yet?" Although He already Made Up His Mind He Wanted To Know What She Was Going To Do.

"Ugh, Um You Can Have Anything You Find Valuable In My House." He Watched Her As She Scratched. You Can Tell That The Drugs Were Finally Catching Up With Her. Her Skin Was Getting Ashy, She Was Losing Weight And She Was Starting To Not Keep Up Her Appearances.

She Was Turning Into A True Feign.

"Baby Girl I Already Decided What I Wanted And Your Going To Give Her To Me." He Watched Her Think About What He Just Said.

"What You M-mean Her?"

"Your Daughter." The Words Sounded Foreign To Her. She Was So Busy Thinking About Her Next Fix She Forgot All About Justus. You Cant Have Her. Anything Else. Just Not Her."

"Either Her Or Your Life. Pick Your Poison."

"That's My Only Baby." She Said Lowly. He Watched Her Fight Within Herself And Wasn't To Surprised When She Said "OK, But What Do I Get For Her?"

"She's A Payment For What You Owe Me So You Get Shit. But You Can Go Head And Keep Coppin From These Corner Boys."

"B-but That's My Only Baby" She Put Emphasis On Only.

"That Has Nothing To Do With Me. You Made Your Choice. Imma Stick Around Until She's Used To Me But After That. I'm Taking Her And I'm Gone."

"OK." She Hung Her Head Low Until The Familiar Baggie Landed In Her Lap. Then She Was Back To Cheesing Like A Kid In A Candy Store.

"Get Out My Car. I'll Be There Later." He Watched Her Get Out And Run Into A Nearby Alley. He Just Shook His Head. He'd Seen The Same Behavior Before But With His Own Mother.

Just Like Camille His Mother Chose Drugs Over Him That's Why He Doesn't Feel Bad For What He's Doing. Only Difference Is That His Mother Left Him To Fiend For Himself At Eight And Camille At least Left Justus With Someone Who Can Care For Her. That's How He Sees It Anyway. It Was Around 11 And He Still Had To Go Home To His Daughter Ahmina. She Was 4 Years Old And Her Mom Died At Birth.

He Loved His Daughter With Everything In Him And That's Another Reason Why He Wanted Justus Around. So She Can Be That Model For Her. He Just May Be Going About It The Wrong Way.

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Nylise And I Woke Up To A Empty Ass House. No Mom And No Ahmir. Where'd They Go? Who Knows But Im Actually Glad Their Not Here Because Mom Would've Got On My Damn Nerves.

It's Early, Like Really Early. "So What Are We Supposed To Do Now. Jay Why Are We Even Up This early?"

"We Gotta Make Breakfast. You Know I'm Always Hungry Girl Get Up."

"Fine But Lemme Go Brush My Teeth And Wash My Face." Nylise Walked In The Bathroom.

I Was Jamming To Keysha Cole While I Got The Stuff Out For Breakfast. Pandora Was Playing All The Good Stuff This Morning. I Got Out The Eggs, Bacon, Grits, Pancake Mix And Plugged Up The Waffle Maker. Nylise Was Picky.

I swayed My Hips While Mixing The Pancake Batter And When I Turned Around, I Almost Had A Heart Attack Because I Had An Audience. Nylise And Ahmir.

"Y'all Don't Know How To Make Noise When Y'all Enter A Room. What's Wrong With Y'all." I Pulled The Mix Into The Waffle Maker And Closed It.

"Jay I Didn't Mean To Scare You Hunny Buns And You Know This."

"Why Are You Here Ahmir And Where Is My Mother? Matter Of Fact Did Y'all Even Leave Together Last Night?"

"I'm Here To Check On You. Your Mother Is On Her Way And Yes We Did Leave Together Last Night."

I Looked At Nylise. "Can You Help with Breakfast. Ahmir Are You Hungry?".

"Yes And Thank You Girls."

"Go Make Yourself Comfy In The Living room And Yeah You Know Where The Bathroom Is."

I Heard The Door Open And My Mothers Voice Shortly After. "I'm Home."

"We're in The Kitchen." I Waited Until She Was In Here To Finish. "Ahmir's In The Living Room. Are You Hungry?"

"Unh Unh Jay. You Never Said We Were Going To Have To Cook A lot. I Don't Want To."

I Had To Look At Her Like She Was Slow. "Girl You Better Get Over Here And Mixed These Eggs. And Then Check Your Waffles."

She Mugged Me, "Love You Too Baby Cakes."

"Well Imma Go On Head And Freshen Up."

"What's With All The Disappearing Acts You Keep Doing Huh?"

"Excuse Me Justus? Wanna Run That By Me Again."

"Why You Keep Leaving Like You Tryna Be On A Episode Of WithOut A Trace. No Explanations, No I Be Back, No Nothing." I Felt My Voice Go Upa Few Notches. Next Thing You Know I Felt A Stinging Sensation On My Cheek.

"Last I Checked I Was Grown. You Don't Question Me. I Go As I Please And Come Back The Same Way. Little Girl I Swear You Gonna Really Make Me Hurt You In Here And Its Not A Game. I Promise."

I Just Looked At Her And Chuckled. "Matter Of Fact You're Absolutely Right. You Are And You Can. But Due To The Fact You Have A 17 Year Old Daughter I'd Advise You To Get Your Shit Together."

"You Little Bitch. You Ruined My Life. If It Wasn't For Your Damn Dumb Ass Father You Ass Wouldn't Be Here Because I Wanted And Abortion Not A Smart Ass 17 Year Old Daughter."

"You Know What? Next Time You Leave Don't Bother To Come The Fuck Back. You Unfit Sad Ass Excuse For A Mother."

"Jay Come On." I Turned To See Ahmir In The Door Way And Nylise Had Already Turned Everything Off.

I Looked At My Mother One More Time Before I Turned And Followed Nylise To My Room To Pack. She Had Me Fucked Up. She Better Be Lucky She's My Mother.