Unfaithful

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Man Its Always Some Bullshit I Swear. That Ragedy Bitch Always On Some Wild As Shit. The Nerve Of Her. Her Words Kept Playing In My Head. "I Wanted an Abortion." I Was Packing My Bag To Go And Stay A Few Days With Nylise. Fuck A Few Days Might Mess Around And Move In.

"You Ready Jay?"

"You Better Check And See If She's DownStairs Because Lord Knows Let Me Go Down There And She's Still All Hell Will Break Loose."

She Just Gonna Look At Me. "Think Its A Game."

"Jay She Gone. She Left While You Were In The Shower."

"Oh Ard."

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I Had Been At Nylises's For A Few Hours And I Had Just Took My Phone Off Of Do Not Disturb And Now It Won't Stop Ringing. "What?" I Yelled Into My Phone. I Didn't Even Bother To Check The Caller ID.

"Damn Ma I Ain't Know We Were Like That."

"Oh Shit My Bad Josh. Wassup?" I Was Sitting On Nylise Bed Looking Thru Catalogues.

"Oh, Word? I just Wanted To Hear Your Voice."

"Aww Did You?" I Was Blushing By Now.

"What You Doing? Wanna Move Our Date Up To Today?"

"What Would We Do?"

"There's A Carnival In Town. Wanna Go?"

"Sure It Won't Kill Me."

"Ard Ma I'll Be There In An Hour. Dress Casual And Be Ready."

"OK I'll Text You The Address. See You When You Get Here."

After Sending Him The Address. I Went To Pick My Outfit And Take A Quick Shower Because Lord Knows That It Take Me Forever To Get Ready. I Decided On Wearing My Black High Waist Pants, My Pink Air Forces And A White Shirt With Minnie Mouse On It.
After My Shower I Got Dressed And Realized Josh Would Be Here In Twenty Minutes So I Brushed My Hair Into A Messy Bun And Added Lip gloss After Brushing My Teeth Again. I Grabbed My Phone, Charger, Lip gloss, Extra Cash And My Taser. Never Know What Would Pop Off. I Put Everything In My Purse And went To Sit On The Couch Til He Got Here.

I Texted Nylise To Tell Her I Was Leaving Since She Was Out Grocery Shopping With Her Mom. She Told Me To Make Sure I Locked Up And Where The Spare Key Was And As Soon As I Hit Send, Josh Texted Me To Let Me Know He Was Outside. I Locked Up And Was Out.

On The Way To The Carnival We Rode In Silence But It Was Comfortable Silence. Aaliyah's Rock the Boat Was Playing Softly. I Kept Staring At Josh Out The Side Of My Eyes. His Side Profile Was Just As Good As The Front.

"Why You Staring At Me Ma?"

"I Thought We Discussed You Calling Me Ma.?"

"Well Justus Why You Staring At Me?"

"I'm Not Staring I'm Just Looking. When Did That Start Being A Crime?" He Didn't Respond So I Just Started Staring Out The Window, Daydreaming.

"What You Thinking About Ma?" I Felt His Hand On My Thigh And That Had My Panties A Lil Moist. The Slight Gesture Alone Made Me Tingle.

"Nothing Important." Just As I Said That We Pulled into The Parking Lot Of The Carnival. I Hopped Out The Car And Walked To The Ticket Booth. "Can I Get Two Unlimited Passes For Tonight Please."

The Lady Smiled At Me. "Yes Sweety That'll Be $45.60."

I Was Looking Through My Purse When I Felt A Presence Behind Me. " You Just Couldn't Wait For A Nigga Huh Ma?" He Whispered In My Ear And Handed The Clerk A Fifty And She Handed Us Two Red Bands.

I didn't Even Care He Called Me Ma This Time. Him Being This Close Is Making Me Weak At The Moment. " Let's Go Get On The Big Slide." I Pulled His Aem Walking Fast To The Slide Line.

"Slow Down Justus."

"No We Got To Get There Before The Line Gets Long." I drug Him Through The Crowd. "See Look." It Was About Five People In front Of Us.

He Wrapped His Arms Around My Neck From Behind. "Its Ard Tho, Just Gives Me Another Reason To Be Up Under You." The Line Started Moving.

When It Was Our Turn We Went Down Together. Josh Sat Behind Me Holding On To My Waist While I Held My Hands In The Air, Screaming. I Had Basically Drug Him to Every Ride Except The Ferris Wheel I Hated It Because It Made Me Feel Like I'm Either Stuck Or Going To Fall.

We Were Sitting At One Of The Picnic Tables Eating Funnel Cake And Buffalo Wings. I Was Thinking About How My Life Took A Turn For The Worse And Felt Like I Was Gonna Cry So I Pushed Those Thoughts To The Back Of My Head. I Was Studying The Look of Josh's Face. Boy Was He A Sexy Piece Of Something.

"I Thought We Discussed You Staring At Me?"

"No You Accused Me Of Staring But Yet I Was Looking And You Never Said I Couldn't So...."

"Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. Anyways If You Take A Picture It'll Last Longer." He Was Wiping His Hands Off.

I Looked At Him For A Second Then Got Up To Sit In His Lap. I Pulled Out My Phone And Took A Selfie With Him Kissing My Cheek.

"Feel Better?" I Was Low key Putting Him On Snapchat While He Was Punishing Them Wings But Hey.

"Nah But I Know Your Ass Do." I Was Smiling Like The Cheshire Cat. I'm Not Gonna Lie, Josh Had Me Crushing Mad Hard. "You Ready To Go."

I'm Glad I Wore Tennis Shoes Because He Had Me Walking Like Shit. "So Jay Why You Always So Quiet.?"

"I Always Got A Lot To Think About." He Looked At Me And Grabbed My Hand.

"Care To Share?"

"Do You Really Care?" I'm Not Too Fond Of Sharing My Feeling With People who Really Don't Care.

"Trust Me I Wouldn't Ask If I Didn't."

I Smiled And Took A Deep Breath. " I Never Knew My Dad. Growing Up It Was Always Just Me, My Mom And Grandma. But Three Years Ago Grandma Died And Mom Started Abusing Drugs. At First I Overlooked It Because She's My Mom And That's How She Coped With It. But Then She Stopped Buying Food, Going Missing For Days And Now She Has This Friend That Just Always Seem To Be There Even When My Mom Isn't There." I Looked At Him To Make Sure He Was Still Listening. He Gave Me A Head Nod To Continue.

"We Had A fight You Know. My Mom And I. She Said When She Was Pregnant With Me She Wanted An Abortion." I Was Livid Thinking About It. I Hadn't Even Known I Started Crying Until Josh Pulled Me To Him And Started Wiping My Tears. " It's Alright Ma."

I Just Looked Up At Him Grabbed His Face And Kissed Him With Everything In Me. " Thanks For Tonight. I Really Needed This." with That We Headed Back To The Car.