The day I met you.

I should not have....

Once upon a time, we swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us and we changed
And then you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairytale just end up this way

We went round for round til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring, not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye

I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like i do
Still can't shake you off (Still can't shake you off)
I can't wait to break through
These emotional changes
Seems like such a lost 'cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you down so low
there's no place left to go

I can't wait to hate you
-- Mariah Carey -- HATE U --

The boys left, the girls left too.. Sara said she had to go home because she hasn't been home since a week. I am left alone with my thoughts, all alone...

Well not really.. I have to babysit my baby brother and my little sister.. my brother and sister left town for a festival or something. ugghh..

I grab my phone to check twitter.

@ILOVE1D: OMG!! YOU'RE SOO LUCKY! YOU'RE FRIENDS WITH ONE DIRECTION!! I WISH I WAS YOU!!
@VainLikeZayn : OMG YOU'RE SOO PRETTY! I'M SOO JEALOUS!!
@ImNotTellingMyName :  you're sooo stupid, thinking that one direction are your real friends, bitch they use you! you're such a whore!

that one hurts. I know, I shouldn't care about what people say. But I guess I am not one of those people who don't give 1 fuck about it.. I wish I was!

Tears streaming down my face.

Verena? I hear an innocent voice say, I looked at my door and saw my little sister standing there also in tears.

What's wrong Lindsay? why are you crying sweety?? come here! I say to her opening my arms to hold her tight to my body.

I don't like it to see you cry Verena! pleasee don't cry! it will make me cry too! She says whipping my tears from my face.

Awww Lindsay! I say whilst hugging her. I love you sweety! I say whilst kissing her head.

I love you to Verena! She says, she hugs me tight and fall asleep, It was around 2pm, so I decided to let her sleep, it was a nap.. i'll wake her up at 4 or something.

Harry was gone, he had to go to the studios today with the boys, Sara had to go home to her mom, she would try to come tonight. and Danielle and Eleanor had to do their stuff so I had no friends today. poor me! I think by myself.

 *knock knock *

Who's can that be? I question myself. I walk downstairs to open the door.

I open the door, Hell.....o. No it can't be. no not you! not now not here. I slammed the door shut.

Verena! please let me talk to you! you didn't let me explain what happened! He says

I know exactly what happened! GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK! I say

Verena please! just.. just let me explain it! Please! He says

You can talk, but behind closed doors. I don't want to see you! I say angrily.