It has been almost four hours since I ran out of the house.... Niall must be looking everywhere for me. He has sent me 48 text messages. I imagine him running around, frantic. Maybe he isn't worried at all and is just wanting to make sure I am okay, or wondering why I ran out... I thought. I started singing Heart Attack by Demi Lavato. I don't know why, though. I guess I thought Niall was too good for me. I've never been the one to fall in love easily. I have trouble with guys. Celeste doesn't even know.. But, that is why I freaked out so badly with Harry. In fact, when I think about it, I don't know why I haven't been frightened these past few days. I mean, I have been alone with 5 guys in their house with my best friend... My mind flashes back to when I was six...
~~~ January 3rd, 2001~~~
I ran into the kitchen to see a strange man. "Daddy, who is that?!" I asked pointing to the man. "That is your brother." My dad told me. "No... Bubby is my brother." I told him. "No, this is your brother, too. His name is Mark. He just hasn't been around. You see, he is you half brother. He is my son, but he isn't your mom's son. Mommy is his stepmom." He replied to me. "Wouldn't that make me his stepsissy?" I asked. "No..." My daddy said.
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I shiver at that flashback. Later I found out that my brother Jake, who was closest to me, was also my half brother from my mom's side. But, I can't even stand the NAME Mark... I came back to what was going on around me. I watched the cars pass by the park. I walked over to the swing, and I started swinging. About five minutes later, someone grabbed the swing to stop it. Then they wrapped their arms around my waist. I froze in fear. They brushed my hair to the side and kissed my neck. "NO!" I shouted. I stood up and started running. "I WON'T LET MYSELF BE IN A POSITION LIKE THAT, NOT AGAIN. THAT WOULD BE THE THIRD TIME IN MY WHOLE LIFE..." I shouted while running. I started crying. "C.J., WAIT! PLEASE! IT'S ME NIALL!" I heard that familiar and beautiful Irish accent shout. I stopped running. I walked over to the bathroom. I was almost to the parking lot, but I couldn't go any further. I walked into the girls' bathroom. I couldn't tell him why I had shouted what I did. I sank down to the floor against a wall. "C.J., you know I WILL come in there if I have to..." Niall shouted. I started sobbing. "Okay, I'm coming in.." Niall said, sounding irritated. He walked in and stood in front of me. He noticed I was crying, so I hid my face in my arms. He sank down by me. "C.J... W-What is going on?" Niall asked, his voice cracking. "I'm s-sorry I freaked out... I-I was just scared th-that was going to h-happen to me for the th-third time in my l-life..." I stuttered out. "Wait...What do you mean the THIRD time...? Wasn't today the first time anything like that had ever happened to you?" Niall questioned. I couldn't help it. I cuddled up to him and buried my face in his chest. I started sobbing so much, it sounded like a mouse dying. I was running out of breath, and it felt as though my eyes were going to lose all of the tears inside of them. I looked up and into his eyes. He looked back. I shook my head. "Oh my God..." Niall said, irritated. He wrapped his arms around me tightly. "I'm so sorry... If I could have, I would have beat the CRAP out of Harry... But, I didn't know. If I would have known, Harry might be dead..." Niall mumbled, tears running down his face. "It's not your fault..." I told him. "Well, whose fault is it?!" Niall growled. I could feel his anger radiating from his arms. "My dad's son... He got out of jail a year ago. He was put in there again for attempting it again. I got a restraining order against him when I was 14... But, now I am 18, so..." I trailed off, tears falling again. "I'm so sorry... It must have been terrible. Especially from your own brother..." He said. I couldn't help myself. I stood up. "DON'T YOU EVER CALL HIM THAT. I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DO... UGH!!!" I snapped. I saw Niall's eyes had gotten huge. "Oh my God, I am so sorry..." I mumbled. "No, it's fine, I completely understand. I wouldn't want to say that he was my brother either if I were you." He answered. "We should get home... Is Celeste mad?" I asked. "Not at you as much as she is at Harry. She isn't moving out, though. She realized how stupid she was after we all had noticed you were gone. I had been searching for four hours straight, I never stopped searching before I found you... Then I realized I hadn't checked the park. I'm sorry I scared you earlier, by the way." Niall explained. Four hours... No one has ever cared that much. I kissed him. "It's fine. You didn't know." I assured him. We walked home from the park. I grabbed his hand, and he tangled our fingers together. "Umm..." He mumbled. "Yes?" I questioned. "C.J., before you came along, I could have sworn I was never gonna fall in love. But, I did. I wouldn't change it for the world. I love you....No, I am IN love with you..." He blurted out. I froze, realizing that this was the first time we have ever said something like that to each other. Then I giggled when I saw him blushing because he was nervous. "I'm in love with you too, Niall. I never thought I would fall in love either, because of everything that has happened. But, I did. Thank you." I replied. "For what?" He asked. "For helping me feel something so incredible. I never knew what falling in love felt like. But, now I do." I told him, smiling. We arrived home in half an hour. "We're home! I finally found her..." Niall said. He walked into the living room. He glared at Harry as he passed him, and walked to the other couch. "C.J... May I talk to you privately, please?" Harry asked. He stood up, and so did I. "No.." Niall growled, while trying to pull me back onto the couch. My eyes met his. "It's okay... If he touches me, I will shout for help." I whispered to him. He nodded. I walked into the kitchen with Harry. "Listen, Harry... If you try anything, I swear to God I WILL hurt you..." I growled, trying to sound evil. "I know... But, I wanted to apologize. To be quite honest, I had a hangover from last night. I wasn't thinking straight. You've known me almost all your life... Please, can we forget it ever happened?" Harry pleaded. "No...BUT, I will forgive you. Although, to be perfectly honest... It isn't just me you should apologize. You need to apologize to Niall, Celeste, the other boys, and the other girls of course... Celeste is in love with you, Harry. Right now she is probably heart broken." I explained. "I will, I promise... But please talk to Celeste?" He begged. "I will, I guess." I decided. He walked into the living room. I looked to see if Niall was in there, but he wasn't. I figured I'd go talk to Celeste then go to bed. I walked up to Celeste's room. I knocked a few times. "Celeste, I have some important n-" I opened the door and was cut off by the shock I had. Celeste was kissing Niall... MY BOYFRIEND! She pulled away from him quickly. Shock was registered on Niall's face. "Hey, it's only fair!" Celeste protested. "I swear, I didn't kiss her! She kissed me!" Niall blurted. I shook my head and backed out of the room. Tears started to fall down my face like rain. I ran to mine and Niall's room and locked the door. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out the blade I used a while back. I haven't done it in a while. There are still scars on my wrist, though. Niall hasn't seen them yet, I guess. I couldn't stand this anymore. I have been bullied, and no one seems to like me. I just saw the guy I am in love with cheating on me... I am guessing I am not good enough for anyone. I put the blade to my wrist, and pulled. I repeated this almost seven times when I started to get blurry vision. I heard fists pounding on the door. I fell to the floor and just before my eyes closed, I saw a pair of white shoes standing in front of me.
"Come back to me, please... You can't die, please!!" I heard a voice call. "Where are you?" I called out. I heard a loud screech.
I shot up and saw I was in a hospital bed. I blinked a few times. "Wh-what happened?" I suttered. "You cut too deep... You lost almost a pint of blood..." I heard Zayn's voice. "Where's Niall?" I asked. "He is talking to the doctor... He feels so bad." Liam explained. "He should... HE WAS KISSING MY BEST FRIEND!" I shouted loudly. Of all the arrogant guys I have met... I was brought out of my thoughts because evidently I was loud enough that Niall heard me from outside the door. He bursted through the door and into my room. "C.J...Thank God!" He said while crying. He tried hugging me, but I pushed him away. "No, you little cheater!!!" I cried. "C.J., SHE kissed ME! I swear!" Niall pleaded. I just shook my head and laid down again, turning away from him. "Niall, maybe you should go. Me, Louis, and Liam will watch her tonight." Zayn suggested. I could see Niall's reflection on the window shaking his head. "Not after what Harry did to her this morning! She has been through so much today!!! She will freak out really bad, knowing her. You don't know about all that she has been through!" Niall protested. "We won't try anything, you can trust us..." Louis told him. Niall sighed. "Fine... But just know this: I won't give up on her...." Niall said. "We didn't expect you to..." Liam muttered. Niall was sobbing, and was about to walk out when I sat up. I love him, and I should trust him.If there is no trust, is there really a relationship? Yes, some trust has left me, but knowing him, he will gain that lost trust back. He heard me moving around and froze in his tracks. He looked up at the ceiling and gasped for air. He was probably thinking I was gonna tell him something mean, like I never wanted to see him again. But, if he did, he was wrong. "Niall... Wait..." I called out. He rushed over by me. "Yes?" He asked. "You know how I have trust issues... Right?" I replied. "Yeah, why?" He questioned. "Because... You wanna know how special you are to me?" I asked him. His eyes lit up like a Christmas Tree. "Yes, of course..." He said. "I trust you. I believe she did indeed kiss you instead of the other way around. Celeste was probably trying to make Harry jealous.." I told him. He smiled and kissed me. "Guys, go home and get some rest, okay? I am sure your girls are waiting." I told the other boys. They nodded and left. "C.J...I am so sorry. I blame myself for this... I should have stayed downstairs. I was trying to convince Celeste to talk to you." Niall told me. "Don't blame yourself.." I told him. Tears started falling down both of our faces. "I got you something. I wanted it to be on a special day, so... I guess today is as good as any." He said and grinned. He pulled out a box from his pocket.Then, he reached over and grabbed my left hand. He slid a ring that said 'Niall's Princess' onto my ring finger. "Wh-what..." I tried asking. "It's a promise ring... I wanted to give it to you yesterday, but you ran out of the house. That's what I went to the bathroom to get." He explained. Now I was crying out of happiness. I closed my eyes and dozed off. Suddenly, the door slammed open. I jumped out of my skin. "GUYS, SOMETHING'S HAPPENED TO LOUIS AND A GIRL HE RAN INTO DOWNSTAIRS!!! IT'S AMAZING AND ADORABLE!!!" Liam shouted happily.
