It was 8:00pm, i had finally finished workand could go home and see luke. Once i had reached lukes house, he was sitting in the garden wating for me to arrive home. I was greeted with a cuddle and kiss one i stepped through the gate.
"Hey tash, how was today?" He asked.
""Fine i guess" i said looking to the floor , trying to hold back the tears at the fact that i totally fucked up my art exam
He lifted up m chin with his hand to see my face, he noticed the tears forming in my eyes and hugged me tightly.
"Don't cry tash, you done your best. Thats all that matters. Cmon come inside. We can talk about it in there" Luke sayed comforting me with a gentle hug.
Luke had gone to make some tea, so while he was downstairs i grabbed my bag and took out my razor. I slashed up my arm with the word failure and watched the blood trickle down my hand. Totally mesmarized by the pain that i was able to get rid of by doing this i completely forgot that luke was coming upstairs. To his horror he opened the door to see me crying and blood over my arms and hands. His eyes glanced to my left hand were i held the razor blade.
"Tash! What are you doing?!?" he sreamed running over to me taking the razor and setting it on the bed side table.
"I ..I... Didnt want you to know. I ..I" I glanced down to my left arm to look at all my previous scars.
Luke took me to the bathroom and clean up the blood and dressed the wounds. I knew that he could tell it wasnt my first time. I knew that he used to self harm as there were still left over marks on his arms.
"Why didnt you tell me? " He said softly looking me in the eyes trying not to cry.
"I didnt want you to leave, i ddnt want you to think that was so freaking kid. Please dont leave" I sayed with tears flowing down my face.
"Why would you ever thnk that i would leave? You're My everything. you helped me stop my self harming now m going to help you. I would never leave you tash, you have to beleive me" Said luke.
He lowered his kneck and kissed the scars and burns on my arms. Each and everyone felt like they almost dissappeard. The pain had gone. For now that is..
