October 28, 2015. 12:05am
You're back. Although, I guess you never really left. It's too much.
So much pain that I can't take, but I guess it really is my fault. I don't know what is wrong with me. I make people so mad, and so disgusted that they want to leave. Or hit me.
Of course I try to tell myself that I'm the victim, and that I didn't deserve it. But after a while... I realize that they are probably right.
Maybe I really am crazy.
Maybe I really do need help.
Maybe I really am a Bitch.
Maybe I really should go away, but this time not come back.
Oh trust me how sometimes I really do just want to disappear from this broken world.
But I can't tell anyone that. I do like talking about how I feel to people I trust, but let's be real. They all turn on me anyway. And even if they didn't....
They would just want to get me this so called "help".
Why can't anyone just understand! I don't need help because there is no such thing as a happy ending, or a place call Heaven because everything IS HELL.
There are days where things go fine and you smile, and you're happy. But all days come to an end, and once night comes around.... It just eats you up. So, you're trapped falling in a never ending abyss.
Instead of nice colorful covers on my bed to keep me warm, I have darkness of my thoughts covering my body. There is no light at the end of the tunnel. It's just a myth Darkness told you so when you thought you found it... You really lost.
Thank you so much for reading my writing! I hope you understand it. I'm so sorry if there are any spelling and/or grammar mistakes. I also apologize if I offended you by saying there is no Heaven. That is just how I felt.
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РазноеSLOW UPDATES. When I'm sad and lonely I write. So I decided to put down what I feel. Each chapter is a different way of saying I'm really Depressed. WARNING!!! THIS COULD BE A TRIGGER!!! You are warned.
