Ok, it is after school. It was pretty boring. This is the entry that I will explain why I have a therapist. Let's travel back 4 years. I have a few journals from some of these years here they are.
2011
June 29, 2011
I am excited I have been counting the days from when school starts again. This year I am going to be in 5th grade. I am excited to see all of my classmates. They were really nice to me when I first moved here, last year. There was a girl named... Lucy and she was very nice to me last year. Well, I am going to bed.
Love, Amber
August 24, 2011
I know that I haven't wrote in a while but my life have been boring. Tomorrow School starts again. Yes! I love school! My mom bought me a folder with a weird design on it. It looks so cool. Today, I went outside and ran.... I love running... I am so excited for tomorrow! Yes, well I have to go to bed.
Love, Amber
2012
January 21, 2012
I again haven't wrote in months. My life sucks, my class is calling me FAT STUPID SHORT and all this other stuff. I just can't do this anymore. I am so sick and tired of it. It has been going on for months. I don't wanna go to school anymore. I am going to bed.
Amber
May 18, 2012
Finally, school is over. I am done with school. I am not saying school as in work. I mean as in people at school. I am stopping this journaling thing for awhile.
Bye, Amber
2014
September, 5 2014
Ok, I am done. I am going to kill myself. I hate life. I thought they were my friends. I am waiting for my parents to fall asleep and then I am going into the bathroom and finding the biggest mg of medicine and taking it. I have had it. My classmates are just plain assholes. We are in 7th grade. Why me? Why do I get picked on? What did I do wrong? I am so sick and tired of this Shit. It isn't easy.
It is now 12:03 am my parents just went to sleep. I have grabbed the biggest mg of medicine. I can't pronounce the name or see it and I don't care what it is. Here is my message that I have for my family.
Dear All of you,
I have had it. I love you all. Mom, you are such an amazing mother and you took good care of me. Dad, I know that I have been a brat to you but I love you are you are so amazing. Amy, you understand everything that I went through except this I always hid it from you. I put on a fake smile and went on with my day. I love you and always remember this wasn't your fault. You will do amazing you will become that lawyer that you want to be. August and Allen you guys are an amazing team you will always will be together. Take care of Amy for me and help you Mommy and Daddy with all they need help with. I love you all and I will see you on the other side.
Love,
Amber
Ok here it goes. I am going to swallow all of these pills in this bottle. Bye world love you all!
Amber
2015
That is my story, after that last entry, My mom came in and called 911 at least that is what she told me. They took me to the hospital and pumped my stomach. I woke up and I knew I wasn't dead... I knew I was in a hospital. I was so mad that I didn't die. My stomach hurt. The doctor came in and told me that they pumped all of the pills out of my stomach. My mom came in crying. I was so mad. I don't remember the rest of the night. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days and then for the 4 days left of the week I had to go to a support group. A week later I went to therapy and met Christi my therapist. She is very nice an always has been. I am glad I met her. Well that is my story I am glad I got that off of my chest.
~Amber
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I finally updated this I guess... it may have been only been a day or 2. I had writer's block so I decided to put this part out. I hope you like Amber's Story so far.
-ariahd01
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