(TULISAS POV)
Fazers been amazing these last few days, he's barely left my side. We go on tour in 2 days, I don't want Dappy to know anything until the tours over. If he finds out I'm pregnant he'll probably want to cancel and I'd hate to let the fans down. "Faze, we need to talk." I say and he comes over. "Whats up?" He asks looking really worried. "I don't want Dappy to know until the tours over." I say. "Are you sure you'll be alright though? Plus you'll start to show soon as well." He asks. "Yeah I'll be fine, please lets just keep it to ourselves?" I ask. "Ok." He replies and I smile.
(FAZERS POV)
I'm quite worried about touring, The time we finish T will be almost 5 months. I heard you start showing around 4 months, I just haven't said much cause I don't want to worry her. The late nights and early starts won't do her any good either. Anyway if she says shes up to it, who am I to stop her...
I haven't heard from Ashley since that text she sent. I've been keeping an eye on her tweets just to make sure shes alright.
I packed for the tour yesterday and brought them to Ts, I'm staying here until we go.
(2 DAYS LATER.)
Ts been at the toilet all morning being sick. "T we have to go babe." I say as she be's sick again. "Why don't we just cancel?" I ask. "No lets go." She says standing up. She cleans herself up. I take the suitcases downstairs. Managements been outside waiting for a good 10 minutes. I open the front door and take our luggage out. Rich comes running over to help me. I go back in the house, T comes downstairs with her handbag. "You ready?" I ask and she nods. We then leave the house, lock up and make our way to the tour bus. When we get there Dappys already inside with a few of the others. "Alright T." Dappy says hugging her. "Yeah fine thanks, excited." She replies. We're sitting having a laugh. "Guys I'm gonna go have a lye down, I didn't get much sleep last night." She says. "Ok darling." Dappy replies. I stay where I am as I don't want them getting suspicious. I get my phone from my pocket and text her.
To T:
You alright?
From T:
yeah just feel a bit sick and tired. x
To T:
Let me know if u need anything.. x
From T:
Will do x
I then put my phone back down and lift the can of bear from the table. "So where we going first?" I ask opening the bear. "Glasgow!" Dappy replies. "Then hitting the town!" Fefe adds. I smile awkwardly.
The next few hours go quick, we've just arrived in Glasgow. We're still driving to the venue though. I decide to go wake T up. I peak my head around the curtain and shake her. "T.." I say and she jumps up. "We're in Glasgow." I say and she yawns. "How do you feel?" I ask. "Much better." She says smiling. She gets out the bunk and walks into the kitchen area. She opens the fridge and grabs a capri-sun. Once we get there we head straight to soundcheck as we don't have much time. Soundcheck goes well, straight after though Tulisa runs out. Dappy looks at me and I shrug my shoulders. I go after her to see if shes ok. Shes outside vomiting. I gently rub her back, I turn around to see Dappy standing at the door, he smiles and goes back inside. Tulisa looks up at me, "Do you think he knows?" She asks. "Of course not." I say and she smiles.
(TULISAS POV)
I've just got ready, I'm wearing a skin tight dress as I wont be able to for much longer. White heels and my hairs straight. "Come on, quickly." The producer says. I run behind the curtain where Dappy and Fazer are. "You okay?" Fazer asks and I nod before looking at Dappy who's staring at me. "1..2...3!" The producer says. Then the curtain drops and smoke comes up. Near the end I miss a few words, luckily Dappy filled in for me. As soon as I get off stage Dappy starts. "What the fuck was that?" He shouts in my face. "Get the fuck out my face now." I shout and he sighs. "Look it was either being sick all over the stage or swallow it and miss a few lines." I say. "Whats wrong anyway, you've been being sick all day." He says. "Nothing." I say and he walks away. I slowly walk into the venue backstage toilets and burst out crying. I've just ruined out first night on tour.
(FAZERS POV)
Later that evening we're in the hotel chilling. I'm sharing with daps. "I'm going to talk to T." He says. "Don't stress her out." I tell him. "Why are you too so close all of a sudden?" He asks. I take a minute to think of an excuse. "Look I think her depression is coming back, she thinks shes getting too fat, shes not eating properly." I say stuttering a little. "That explains her sickness." He says and I nod. "I'll go apologise." He says and I nod again.
(DAPPYS POV)
I'm on my way up to Ts room. I can't believe she never talked to me about this. I was so hard on her earlier, that wouldn't have helped. I knock on her door and a few minutes after she opens it. "Hey." She says standing back. "Hey." I reply walking in. "I'm sorry for earlier." I say. "Its fine, I messed up. I'm sorry." She says and I smile. "Let me take you to McDonald's? You can just have a salad if you want." I suggest. "Hmm that would be great I'm starving. A salad? Why would I wan't a salad?" She asks laughing. I frown, Fazer told me she stopped eating... We drive to a 24 hour Mcds then go in. She gets a McChicken sandwich meal, large! I spend most of the time staring at her eating this roll. The way shes eating tells me Fazer told me a pack of lies and I intend to find out why!
