Let My Voice Be Your Guidance

Never in my life have I felt this lonely. I feel lost, like I'm in my own world, somewhere dark and cold with no guidance.

"Are you okay Amber?" A voice brought me back to my senses, pulling me from my own world .I nodded.

"Please call me Mark, I will be the one to question you today." he said seating himself infront of me in a position meaning 'business'.

"Where were you on the day of Jason's murder, between 10:00 am and 2:00 pm?" he asked glancing up at me, the man had black hair that had no certain style, his eyes were a perfect color of blue, his body was well built and toned. he was wearing a police uniform like all the others on the way here, his badge clipped to his left pocket on his chest.

"Jason was my best friend, I would never kill him." I snapped. "I was having a walk on the beach with a friend" the truth is i did kill my bestfriend but i had my own reasons and i wasn't willing to go to jail for it.

"Okay, can I have your friend's name please?" Mark asked holding a paper and pen.

"by the way, i'm really happy that you have me as a suspect" I emphasized the word "suspect" speaking with a sarcastic tone.

I was upset, angry and scared all at the same time.

"Amber, I want the name so we can confirm that your innocent ." he said sighing.

"Okay, his name is Daniel Riley" I said after I calmed down.

He wrote something down and stood up "Is this the person?" he held a picture of him up.

"Yes, that's him." I said biting my lower lip.

"he was questioned early this morning and it was confirmed that he attended a party with some of his friends" He folded his hands in front of his chest and leaned against the chair.

"Care to explain?" Mark asked raising and eye brow. damn, this man was good.

"Ummm...Well he had to leave and he did mention that he was going to a party somewhere near hillcrook lake." I said acting confident.

"Well sorry to tell you that the party he attended was far away from hillcrook lake and that Daniel wasn't at a party from the beginning, he was at work." He said smiling.

I completely forgot that Daniel had work on that day and now I was in deep trouble.

"Well I'll tell you the truth but promise me that you won't tell anyone" i sighed.

"Alright, begin" He said.

"Well you know how I'm divorced and the children live with their father." I said.

"Yes. Please continue" Mark said patiently.

"Well I went to see my children secretly, my children have a program in a local library that they attend. that's all" I smiled.

"Amber, listen to me. My job is to discover the truth and I am telling you, you were not at the library with your children" He said getting me nervous.

"That's right, I wasn't at the library. we went to the movies." I moved in my place trying to hide my hands that were now trembling.

"Amber you are supposed to cooperate so we can prove that you are innocent." Mark sighed. "We need solid proof."

"I am cooperating." I half yelled.

"No you are not. we already questioned your husband and he didn't take the children to the library on that day." He said.

I was starstruck, my whole life came crashing down.

"Well I'm so sorry that you don't believe me and have a nice day" I got up and hurried toward the door only to find it locked, I tried opening it again but it was definitely locked.

"so my conclusion was correct." He said standing up.

"n..no I..I.III...need..to..go" I stuttered.

"your not going anywhere. except for jail." Mark said.

"NO! YOU HAVE NO EVIDENCE! YOU CAN'T ARREST ME!" I yelled backing up against the door.

"oh yes we do" he sang holding up a pen stained with blood.

"NO...IMPOSSIBLE....WHERE DID YOU FIND THAT?!" my mind stopped receiving orders, my body was shaking and all i could hear is "RUN". I could see myself ten years from now sitting in a room with metal bars and non-breakable locks.

"You are under arrest for murder." Mark said making his way to me.

"You can't....no, I won't let you! never!" I bolted towards him choking him with my bare hands.

"are you- sure-you want- to-kill another- person again?" He said between coughs.

that word "again" sent a wave of flashbacks to my head not only hurting me but changing something inside of me making me reconsider my actions.

"You-don't want-to do-it-again, do-you?" He said it again.

I loosened my hands and ended up letting go.

"I'm so weak.." I choked on my tears. "I'm nothing but garbage, that's what I am."

Mark pulled me into his chest, even though I tried killing him.

"Why?" I whispered.

"What?" Mark asked.

"Why are you hugging me?" I pushed him away making him stumble a few steps. "I tried killing you...I'm nothing to you"

"Everyone makes mistakes, some of us make bigger mistakes than others but we should learn from our mistakes" He said.

"Thank you" I smiled with teary eyes.

"Take care" He smiled putting the handcuffs on my wrists and handed me to the cops that just came in.

I made my way to the door . "why did you do it?" I heard Mark ask.

"Jason was like a brother to me" i took a deep breath and tried holding back my tears. ", but one day he came in..drunk, he started hitting me even though he didn't live with me, he would come by every single day and I had enough of him" I choked on my tears.

"It didn't have to end this way" Mark told me.

"CUT!" The director shouted walking up to us and handing me a bottle of water.

"That was great!" He said.

"Thank you" I smiled.

"It was awesome! your a great actor! I have always wanted to see you in action" the producer told me.

"Thank you and I have always wanted to work with you." I said copying his tone as i walked away.

"They are all fake..." I sighed.