Fearless

Chapter 2

Ohãna

After coming out the shower, brushing my teeth I sat in front of the mirror and started to analyse my face.

Thankfully I didn't have work until tomorrow. The bruise on my eye I could easily cover up with makeup if it hasn't gone down by then.

Believe me I've had to cover up worse. As for my lip it was kinda swollen so I made my way downstairs to get an ice pack.

Looking at the clock in the hallway it was 10:27 meaning I was home alone. I sighed in relief.

Had I woken up earlier I would've had to see his face and have him tell me he loves me or that he's so sorry.

Lies.

Entering the kitchen there was a small bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolates on the table.

I looked at them and scoffed picking up the small to and from card.

'Baby, I love you so much. I didn't want to do it, forgive me.xx
Love D.'

I couldn't help but feel a little bit better, I might seem crazy but this is a 2 year relationship. I love him and no matter how hard I try I can't stop loving him.

This is my first serious relationship. It wasn't always like this, with the hitting and stuff.

He used to take me out and make love to me. He would do the sweetest things to show he loved me and I miss that the most.

I guess the thought of us going back to the way we were some day has been holding me together.

Holding the ice to my lip I scanned through my mail. Nothing too important just a few bills and sales brochures.

I sat down on my phone in the living room and called my best friend, Amber.

"Hey Girl" she answered on the third ring.

"Hi, you okay?" I said, feeling happy to talk to someone and feel comfortable.

"Yeah just about to head to my moms to pick up some things I left there last week. What are you doing today?"

"Nothing much we don't have to work today, so I'll probably just chill at home."

"I know right, I needed this day off so bad. Should I come by after I leave my mamas house and we can go out or something? You never come out anymore"

I remembered how Darius told me that I can't have nobody at the house while he's not there and I can't go out without permission unless I'm 'taking my ass to work' as he would say.

Even though she's my best friend and he's known for as long as he's known me I didn't want to risk it.

"I know I've been busy lately but we gotta meet and catch up soon. Not today unfortunately, I don't feel to great. I think it's that time of the month soon" I said also thinking about the way my face was set up.

I always avoided family and friends when I was bruised up because it's not like I'm trying to protect Darius but it's hella embarrassing.

"Okay girl we'll arrange another day, but rest up well, eat chocolate and stack up on tampons" she laughed. "Love you"

"I will" I giggled softly. "Love you too Chica, bye."

I hung up the phone and sighed. Everyone else is so happy and free but I can't even laugh without feeling to cry.

I checked the time on my phone seeing it was 11:45, I got up to make breakfast. Or lunch. Brunch.

I was feeling for some bacon with grits and eggs but there was no eggs.