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Chapter 12

The next day, I felt depressed. Then Kyla invited me to a sleepover her, with 4 other girls and I. So excited. It's was the next day and I was full of joy. I was finally fitting in. After my amazing day at school, I visited Emily and she is making great progress, she remembers me, her family, Sean and waffles( The food and her dog). She felt so, happy. The next day was the day of the sleepover, but something inside of me was saying "No don't go". I didn't listen. I got there with such joy. I entered and everyone laughed and whispered , I brushed it off. It was going amazing until... The crowning of the biggest loser, It was me. I'm not even that bad. I got a crown and everything. I ran out of the room crying. I felt hurt, pain. Why? I went home later that night. Not staying over to be laughed at. Why? I thought she changed. I thought this could end, but no. My mom is dead, me and my best friend now don't talk to each other, and this stupid girl won't stop. It's been a few weeks later with eating lunch on my own and sometimes with Sean, and Emily's left. Emily remembers lots more, even me. I miss her, a lot, she was my last friend. Sean decided to talk to me in more than a sentence. "Fallen we need to talk" he said. " No we don't, we're no longer friends, just acquaintances." I told him.  " Fine, but know we can't anymore" he said. I was heart broken, but ok. He hurt me, so I'm all good. No I'm not. I went to school the next day and was the last day of cheer, it's finally over. It stopped being fun a while ago. With the whole issue of mine. I wish life was better, better for me for everyone I knew. No don't think about yourself think about others. I continued my day in grief and just had a normal life of loneliness. Since Emily left I've been gloomy, so be prepared for a gloomy part of the story. Wow I sound awful, well. I wish I was nicer to Sean, maybe we wouldn't be here.