Im in love with a Fan-Girl~

Chapter 4 : I'm Sorry...

At lunch the next day, I explain to all my friends about how we're perfect for each other, and how she likes me back, and I kept on rambling on. My friend Andrew stopped me and looked at me. "Doesn't Shawn like Caylani?" The group fell silent and all we heard was the ambiance of lunch. My heartbeat slowed down as I thought about it. Shawn wasn't here at the time, he hangs bout by a tree near the center of our campus, with Caylani, Aryanna, and others. My heartbeat then sped up thinking about what's going to happen to our friendship. He's such a good person and I don't want to hurt him.

I can't lose him as a friend. He's one of my most valued friends. He helps me when i'm down. Andrew said "Well... what are you going to do?" I scratch my head and explain to them : "I don't wanna lose him as a friend, he means so ,much to me, I can't just steal the love of his life away from him." Allen looks at me and says "You're going to have to tell him." I look up and say "I-I can't"

Andrew puts his hand on my shoulder and says "Dude, you have to, before he finds out later, that would just be worse." I rub my eyes because of this sudden stress put on my back. I think to myself "How could I forget about him? How could I be so selfish?" The bell rings and I get butterflies in my stomach because I know what I have to do. My heartbeat gets fast again and I get nervous.

I see him walking and I catch up to him. He looks upset. "Hey, dude." I say to him. "Sup." He says in a low tone. I look at him and I say "So... about Caylani and I-" "I know, she likes you." He interrupts me. "Shawn, I-" "It's okay man, i'm happy for you." Shawn makes a fake smile. I can tell he's trying to hold in tears. "I'm sorry Shawn, I really am I promise, okay? I really don't want this to affect our friendship, alright? I know you'll...you'll find another girl." I say with tears falling from my eyes.

"Dude, it's okay.... as long as she's happy...i'm happy."

What he said, made my heart stop for a split second. I wipe my tears and say once again with my voice shaky: "I-I'm sorry..." He gives a faint smile and walks to his class.

I'm sorry, Shawn.

I really am.