2 weeks later
Jacks POV
It's been two weeks since the whole thing with Vanessa. She's been really upset and depressed and won't eat sleep or talk to me. I just want to understand wants wrong. The most words I've gotten out of her are 'yeah' or 'I'm fine.' Like that's bullshit V common. She should know I care about her and that I care about her.
Today has been and uneventful day just like these past two weeks. All "we've" been doing is sitting around doing absolutely nothing. Watching movies where Vanessa doesn't even let me cuddle or lay with her. It's getting really old and annoying like I understand she's in pain but she needs to realize it's causing me pain to.
I just don't want to lose her like I lost the last girl I started to love....
Vanessa's POV
I've been distant.
No words.
Not eating.
cutting.
starvation.
sleepless.
scared.
just Depressed.
Everything is wrong. I haven't told him yet. I need to. My brother he's gone. Just like my mom. He had fucking cancer and I couldn't save him! I'm so stupid and dumb I couldn't realize that he was sick. Now he's gone, how am I supposed to be processing this. Jack doesn't even know. For all I know he won't even care. Why would he all I am right now is a depressed mess. I don't let him touch me or anything even though I miss the touch of him. I miss the way he kissed me and would wrap his arms around me like he was never gonna let go. I miss him.
"V?" jack says and my head snaps towards him.
I can't even talk to him. he isn't going to care. he doesn't want your depressed ass here. why are you even still here.
"mhm?" I sniffed wishing I could just disappear.
"woah woah Vanessa, I didn't mean to upset you." He says rushing to my side and hesitantly pull me into his arms and hold me. I missed this.
"Please talk to me. I've seen everything your doing to yourself from not eating to not sleeping, and most of all you just sit by the window and look in the backyard looking like your waiting for someone or something to take you away. What's the deal Vanessa I'm DONE WITH THE BULLSHIT!" Jack screams at the end causing me to flinch and jump a little.
"sorry. it's just-" and in that moment I wanted to tell him everything that's happened the past two weeks. But I couldn't."it's nothing important it's dumb. I should just get over it cause it's not like I can bring em back."
Jack looked at me for a moment and looked at me like he figured out the most important question ever.
"I'm so fucking stupid. How did I not realize sooner!" Jack put his head in his hands and was frustrated.
"when?" was all that came out of his mouth.
I just looked at him and shrugged.
He pulled me on his lap and kissed me roughly. Wtf is going on right now.
he pulled away, " it's okay I'm here to keep you save and help you not hurt you. so just tell me."
(skip convo bout the cancer cause I don't feel like crying anymore)
Jack has me wrapped up in a blanket in his sweats and hoodie to keep me warm. while changing me he saw what was physically happening to me and cried a little. He showed me old pictures of us and of my mom and brother and dad and me. We looked so happy. Now it's all just drifting.
Jacks POV
I just want her to be okay.
I don't want her to disappear like the last one because I don't think I could lose this girl right here. She means to much. It'd cause me so much pain.
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A/n that was horrible 😞 I'm ugh so ashamed of myself.
fuck this
