Strangers (Boyxboy)

0.5

Jonathan is a guy . Victor is a guy . Capisce ?

2012

My life always remained c o n s t a n t .

There were no unnecessary flickers or tilts . It was always around one person .

I never thought about a future without that one person . I didn't even search for a light , he was my light .

We hadn't talked for four months . Quick glances and accidental shoves didn't really help my situation . I was dipped in regret and that's all I ever did these four months , r e g r e t .

Victor seemed to be handling it well and that made me jealous . I was here , burning holes behind his back and missing his presence while he was throwing his head back and laughing along with Stacy .

My brown cashmere scarf was muffled around my neck and my trench coat was pulled together tightly . My hair felt soft and breezy as the tips of my hair were covered in snow . December was always my favorite month and my mom had already put up the Christmas tree.

I want another chance , a chance to e r a s e . 

I want to tell him that if we could pretend like nothing ever happened and go back to how we were . Go back to calling each other names , eating each other's lunches , sitting together and singing to pokemon theme songs . 

I miss it so much . 

I don't have a friend , Victor , you were my only friend.  

Today in the auditorium , we sat together , for such a long time we sat together . I couldn't hold in all my emotions at once , I wanted to cry , laugh , shout and everything but he didn't seem to be affected. He looked composed and raw but yet , he was the first one to break the silence . 

When a person talks to you or anybody , they have a way of talking to different people,you just know. Either their pitch lowers or their slang of words change , you can feel and know the emotions of the person who is talking . 

Victor talked to me in cold ,

" So how's school ? "

" Good , I guess "

" I heard you got first place in the June exams , congratulations , I know I'm late "

I was about to cry , hearing this much from him was more enough to take . I could feel the warmth seeping through his words . Now that I had the chance to speak to him , I wanted to tell him . I wanted to ask him why the whole school doesn't know yet , I wanted to ask him if he's alright , I wanted to ask him so many things .

" Thanks and ab-about that day , -- " 

" It's okay , Nathan " 

Nathan ? Tears starts falling from my eyes without my attention , I cautiously touched my cheeks from the wetness on my cheeks . 

" You didn't tell anybody ? "

" Of course not , you idiot . I wouldn't talk about my best friend like that "

Best friend ? My hands began shaking although they were firmly gripping my knees . After a few moment , he talked again but now , I could see him a bit flustered and embarrassed .