Rule #4- Do Not Double-Back To Old Relationships
No Monologue just listen.
Do not double back to old relationships. Old flames are old flames for a reason, leave them be. Don't let a nigga have a hold on you, once he's made it clear that's he's done, the best thing you can do for yourself is let it go.
I know it seems difficult, but fully letting go of someone is one of the most liberating feelings ever. It's such a weight lifted off of your shoulders.
Story Time
Rotten Apple, my beloved Rotten Apple. I was so fixated on him. Loving him. Yearning for the tiniest bit of attention. He could look at me, even if only for a millisecond, and I would be satisfied for weeks.
It was so unhealthy.
He meant everything to me.
Keyword: Meant
After a lot of time and thought, I realized that I was honestly wasting my time. He will never be what I need. He will never reciprocate my feelings. And if he told me he wanted to be with me at this very moment, I would laugh in his face.
It's not that he hurt me or that I'm angry with him. It just that I realize that it's never going to work, and I've accepted it.
Acceptance is the key element.
I've known for years that it wouldn't work, but i still had a glimmer of hope.
I knew what the situation was. The facts were laid out right in front of me, but I chose to ignore them.
For years I was bound by this hope, this faith that one day he would see that I am everything that he could ever want. I've probably turned down my soulmate chasing this what if. It it took a lot of self reflection for me to realize that he doesn't even deserve to be placed on such a pedestal.
I was so in love with him, I disregarded all of his flaws and made him out to be this perfect being. I idolized this man. He was like this person that couldn't be compared to anyone else. Not even that can describe the way I thought about him. I don't even think I can put it into sentences. The perfection would not even suffice.
He was everything, my world revolved around him.
But there was no reciprocity and I am no longer content with that.
I know I deserve way better than that. And I am too damn cute to be waiting on some nigga to finally want me. And I have way to many suitors to be worried about one.
I am better than that.
And you are too.
Embrace this new found freedom. Stop dwelling on the past and look forward to the future.
So it didn't work out with him, there will be others. And when you find that one, he will be just as crazy about you as you are about him.
Now I'm not sure about you, but I can not wait to find that one.
