Thug Fucking Love

No Change Needed

We were in the hospital awaiting for a doctor to tell us Rah was going to be ok. I shook my leg fiercely as I covered my face with my hands. I tried not to think of a worst outcome. "He said he was a better shooter." I said my hands now shaking.

Kidd and Angel were with me. Both of them surprised that I spoke. They quickly looked at me. "You okay, ma?" Angel asked. I ignored him. I didn't feel like telling him, no, I wasn't alright. My cousin was on a hospital bed fighting for his life.

"Look Blu-" Kidd said putting his hand on my shoulder. I flinched at the cold touch and quickly got up. I couldn't be around them right now. So, I went to the bathroom.

I looked at my face, surprised to see all the cuts and bruises from the last couple of days. I wanted to cry again, but I didn't. I ran warm water on my face and patted it dry with a paper towel. As I walked down the hall I saw Kidd and Angel talking to a doctor. I quickened my pace to hear the rest of the conversation.

"And the bullet traveled to the membrane of his stomach. He lost a lot of blood and we were able to take the bullet out but-"

"Is he alive? Is he ok? Can I see him, please let me see him." I panicked.

"Your cousin is fine, but during the procedure he slipped into a coma." The middle age man told me. A coma? "We have no clue to when he'll wake. We'll keep you and your relatives updated."

"It's just me." I whispered trying to listen and process everything at once. I heard about people slipping into a coma for years or never waking up. I couldn't go through life without my cousin. He's my rock, he's been taking care of me for as long as I could remember. Yea he can be a jerk sometimes but he always made up for it.

"Yea," Angel spoke up "But she's staying with me." He said. Staying with him? How can I rely on someone who was just a year older than I was. Yea, he was mature for his age but he could act like a child at times.

"But, you can inform me of everything, I'm the eldest." Kidd spoke next looking straight at Angel. This was not the time or place to be having an argument.

"Very well then." The doctor said looking confused. "I'll keep you all updated." He smiled walking away.

"I'll be moving in to help out." Kidd said randomly. I didn't care at the moment. I was just hoping that Rah would be ok.

"Can we go now?" I asked. I loved Rah and will visit everyday but I was in desperate need for a shower. The boys nodded in agreement and took me to their house.

***

2 weeks later

Rah still has awakened from his coma. The doctors said he hasn't shown any progress of doing so anytime soon but I don't listen to that. I visit Rah 4 out of 7 days in the week. My diploma was mailed to me last week and I told Mandy everything that has happened. She's been over Angels house almost everyday since.
Of course she misses Rah too, she has a crush on him.

Kidd has moved in but hasn't been much help. However he's been working from home while Angel has practically been out of the house the last weeks. He lives at noon for work and won't come back in until the middle of the night. Neither of them talk to me much anymore. That's why I have Amanda over a lot.

"You can jump in the shower next if you want." I told Amanda as I gripped my towel and ran my fingers through my curls. It was 10:00 in the morning and I already had my outfit laid out. Dark grey shorts and a light grey cropped sweater. I slipped on my lace panty and bra set from Victoria secret as Amanda looked away. I quickly ran a thin layer of coco butter through my skin and face and sprayed myself with perfume. I threw on my outfit and plopped myself on the bed.