Dangerous Love (EDITING)

Chapter 24

Harry’s pov.

I rubbed my arm with the wet tissue knowing that warm water and rubbing it with something will get the waterproof concealer off. I rubbed it till I saw that the tissue has gone a beige kinda colour that matched my skin. I looked at it for a while knowing that Luna will be the first person to know about this and probably the only one as well. I looked up at Luna my inner arm held towards me still not visible for Luna. Her tears had stopped falling through the process of me washing off my arm and the only signs that she had cried were her red and puffy eyes matching the colour of her cheek. I took a deep breath and she got even more suspicious trying to take a peek at my arm but I was too far away from her and my arm was held close to me.

"I had a similar past like you. But the thing is that it isn’t just in my past." I gulped as I took a few steps towards the bed lowering my arm to make her see what I’ve been hiding. She gasped and clasped his hand over her mouth.

"Oh My God." She whispered observing my arm that was full of pink lines some already healed some still very fresh. “You cut" She meant it as a question but it more of came out like a statement.

"Ever since I have got used to the fact of being a vampire." I whispered as I held my arm in place. She observed my scars and ran her finger over one that I did this morning. I winced as I had went very deep and it hurt.

"You still do." She whispered. “These are fresh cuts like they were done a few hours ago." She knelt up on the bed and looked towards my upper arm and she saw that little cuts were seen here and there too. She looked at me and the quickly rolled up the small sleeve of my t-shirt.

"There are not many up there, and I didn’t wash it off." I told her and I stretched towards the nightstand where the glass with the water was sitting, dipping the tissue in and then washing off my upper arm revealing a few very, very old scars. I only cut up there when it was hurtful on my lower arm and I had the need to feel physical pain.

"What didn’t you wash off?" She questioned. I smirked softly.

"Concealer. Waterproof. I use it to hide it. I don’t want anyone to know about it. You are the first person who I have revealed this to." I smiled at her and she still had worry in her eyes. She suddenly changed the subject and looked at my lower arm again.

"When…when was the last time you cut?" She asked me and I looked up into her eyes which held hurt in them.

"This morning." I looked down. She gasped and I was suddenly pulled into a hug my curls being combed by soft fingers.

"Why? Why do you do it?" She whispered into my ear and I felt my cheek getting wet again not sure if I was crying or she was. This time it was me as another tear escaped my other eyes.

"Because I am hurt. I feel like a monster. I am sick of being the grown up in the group when actually I am crumbling inside. I hate this. I tell the guys to accept all of this cause there is nothing they can do about it while I have no one telling me this and I don’t feel supported. I can’t kill myself with cutting and I am aware of that, that’s not what I am aiming for. I just want all the pain that I feel inside to become something that I feel on the outside and so I do this. You don’t even notice it on me cause I have learned to hide it but I just feel alone even if I have people around me." My tears were running down fast on my cheek but I maned up taking a big gulp and stopping my tears. A few minutes of silence took over before Luna spoke. She was either taking all of this in or she was making sure that I have finished.

"My poor baby." She whispered into my ears and kissed my cheek. “Harry I know this may sound very weird after just a few days but I love you and I understand you." She whispered as she pulled away from the hug pressing a kiss on my cheek and slowly kissing away the tears on my cheek that haven’t dried up yet. She worked her way onto my lips and kissed me with love. I puller her closer into me  and her kissed her back the salty taste of tears still on both of our mouths. The kiss got a bit deeper and she took my shirt into her fist her other hand slowly working its way up my torso eventually stopping on the back of my neck. I felt goosebumps appear when her warm hand connected with my cold skin. I pulled away smiling keeping my eyes closed.