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viola_k100 : leave me alone.

alex-awsome: what why?!

viola_k100: it's complicated alright?

alex-awsome: I feel like a old couple. But we met each other like what 2 days ago? But ok I'll leave you alone. Text me when you want to. :)

See what I mean by always shutting people out? It hurts them. But Alex understood me. And I am grateful for that.

viola_k100: yeah sure whatever. 

I turned off my phone and I walked to school.

I hate school.

I'm sure everyone does but my hate for school is unexplainable.

It all happened after the incident.

"It's all your fault!" They screamed at me.

"He died beacsue of you. You could have saved him when you watched them kill you! You bitch! You don't deserve to live!" They said while pushing me.

They were hurting. But so was I.

They pushed me, beated me, told lies to me, took all my happiness. And it was all because of me being worthless.

I stopped zoning out and kept walking. I felt a car slow down next to me no no please no not today!

"HEY BITCH! WHY DONT YOU TAKE THESE AND MAYBE BLEED TO DEATH?" Screamed a jock that rolled down his window while laughing. He threw me some blades.

I was shocked. It's been so long since I saw these. And well, cut.  But I wasn't going to. I'm strong I can do this.

They drove past me and I picked up the box with the blades in it. I looked at it.

Don't
Do it
You're strong
Take them
You've been clean for a month
That's nothing. Do it.
Leave them
Take them.

I took one and stuffed in my bag. I threw the rest into the trash can.

I took out my phone.

viola_k100: Hello Alex

alex-awsome: THANK GOD!

viola_k100: ?

alex-awsome: I thought you were dead.

viola_k100: to be honest I wish I was.

alex-awsome: what why?

viola_k100: I don't know if I should tell you.

alex-awsome: please do!

viola_k100: last year something terrible happened. Someone died and everyone in  school thought I was the reason the person died. So they beated me (still do) , said mean things to me and made rumors about me. This lead me to self-harm. One point in my life I was about to die. But I didn't. That showed me how dangerous self-harm is. So I stayed clean for a month. But today my bully's threw blades at me and I'm scared of starting again.

alex-awsome: Vio. Those people are assholes to do those things to you. Stay strong and don't leave me please. You have a whole life ahead of you. Get a chance to live it. And if you don't mind me asking, what happened? 

viola_k100: thank you alex. Really thank you. And I'll tell you later when I'm ready.

alex-awsome: anytime. Stay strong xox.

viola_k100: I have to go. Schools starting. Bye.

alex-awsome: good luck bye.

This was a long chaper! Enjoy it.