Thoughts...

Kittens/Cats

Novemer 7
So I found a stray cat around where I lived a couple months ago (like 4-6 months) and i really liked her and my mom wouldn't let me keep her but I bought her food and named her.Nyko.I love that name for some strange reason.I adore cats especially black ones.So my mom a couple weeks later wanted me to instead get a different cat from the animal shelter.I becane sad but accepted but afterwards that same cat became pregnant.So my mom let us wait till she gave birth and she did a month later.There were 4 cats a gray one,a black one,and two black cats with white paws.After 2 days the mom cat disappeared.I never saw her again afterwards.So we kept them for 3 months then my mom had it.She didn't want the kittens and talked to her boyfriend this morning (today) how they were going to take them to the shelter.So I really love the kittens and I loved them all equally but we had to take two of them and I had no.choice but to give up the twin cats.I looked at the twin cats and cried at home.My mom saw me and said to stop fucking crying that i was crying for no reason and it was stupid. Then i went into my room and so I took a shower before we left to take them.As soon as i was dressed I kinda cried more Cause i really did love them all.My mom came in my room and said what was I crying for and so I glared at her and said she wouldnt care anyway.So we went into the car and my older brother had the box of the twin kittens.I was next to him and the kittens started crying.I felt very sad and felt like crying.
Im very sensitive and cry towards animals...im sorry don't judge me!
So we reached the pet clinic and my brother got out with my moms boyfriend and I stayed in the car.My mom said I Better not start my crying shit.So I tried not to tear up which was difficult since i kept thinking about them and I still am.So when my stupid brother comes back I tell him to go around and he acts like a bitch and says "your only mad cause of the dumb cats!"I mimicked him cause i was mad and immature AND i can't cuss him in front of my....mom!So we drive home and my mom starts to talk shit about the rest of the kittens leaving and i get mad and mimick her too and so she said when im at school she's going to take them to the shelter and i get quiet and ignore her they whole way.
She thinks i cry for no reason but i love cats and she cant fucking understand me like my dad.
Im sensitive cause of my parents.I love cat/animals cause i never got to keep one myself when i was younger.
So call me immature I DONT CARE.

I apologize for my language...