Alex POV
Everything felt off.
It had been a day since I had to break things off with jack and i felt awful. My throat was dry, I had a raging headache, and my stomach was doing backflips. I needed to get out of this hot room. I opened the door and made my way downstairs. Ugh my legs felt as if they were about to give. I reached the kitchen and hurried to get water. I turned on the tv to get my mind off things for a bit.
But the news headline struck my attention
"BALTIMORE TEEN COMMITS SUICIDE"
"It's not jack" I tell myself. But the story continued. "Local Baltimore teen Jack Barakat commits suicide reasons unknown"
All of a sudden my hearing fades and I drop my water. All I can hear is a distant buzzing noise. "No" I say to myself. I stumble onto the ground shards of glass piercing my arm. I run upstairs and throw myself against my pillow.
What felt like years was only a few hours. Is it really how it all ends? I get my camcorder beers razors pills anything I could find and I lock myself in the bathroom.
"Hello. My name is Alex Gaskarth. The time is 2:24 and it has been some time now since Jack Barakat has commuted suicide. Jack barakat was probably the love of my life and I let it all slip away from me. So if this is really happening. I wanna be with him again."
I downed the beers first. I blasted my blink 182 music as loud as I could since no one was home and wouldn't be for a week. The tipsy feeling kicked in so I Downed the pills next. My vision was starting to go fuzzy. Finally those precious blades.
"One cut two cut three cut more" I sang. I decided to start from my elbows and go down. "Four cut five cut six cut more" until I was down at my wrists. Should I really do this? I questioned. "For Jack" I whispere slicing my wrists. Everything went black. And. I realized if I was willing to do this for jack, then it must be true love.
A/N
I'm so sorry. I forgot all about this book and I had no idea people were actually reading it. But thanks for the votes and such. ^_^
