If I Don't Have You

Decisions

I woke up finding myself cuddled next to Izzy who had his shirt off. I started panicking thinking that I had done something with him last night, but I realized that all of my clothes were on, as normal. The clock read 11:47. My stomach grumbled because I hadn't eaten in hours. I didn't wanna get up, but I was too hungry to ignore it.

I walked out of Izzy's room and saw Axl walking by, and our eyes met eachothers. He looked at where I had came from and he looked, well, pissed. Which was putting it lightly.

"Skye, what the hell were you doing in there?!" He barked. I jumped back and nearly fell down. I looked back and saw that Izzy had woken up from all the noise.

"Axl? Skye? What's going on?" He said groggily.

"Izzy, did you sleep with her?!" Axl yelled. He could've woken the whole damn building.

"What the hell, no. I gave her a place to sleep. It was late, plus she seemed upset." He explained, sounding kinda mad at the accusation. Axl's face softened, but he huffed into his room.

"Sorry Iz, I didn't mean to make Axl mad at you." I murmured, looking down. He got up, put a shirt on, then walked up to me.

"Nah it's alright, it's not your fault." He replied. "It was my decision to let you stay in here anyway." I nodded slowly, but still felt sorry. "Look, between you and me, I'm pretty sure that Axl has feelings for you. Or at least, had." He said quietly.

"..I know" I whispered to myself. I remembered the night I left. When he tried to kiss me.. And last night. When it nearly happened again.

"Why don't you go tell him how you feel?" He asked. I let out a sad sigh and peeked out the door to he and Gina's room. "Oh, I see.. but he and Gina aren't really doing too well. They fight all the time. I overheard them a few nights ago, and Gina accused Axl of not showing enough affection towards her."

"Still... I don't wanna come between them. I mean, if they do break, maybe I'll tell him. But not now." I said sadly.

"I won't meddle with this, but I really think you should." He suggested while lighting a cigarette. I stayed quiet while I thought about it and he walked into the living. I leaned my head against the wall feeling frustrated. I loved him. He was, and still is my first love. But I couldn't do this to Axl, or Gina. I'd never forgive myself.