It's 7 in the morning. You kept tossing and turning that night. Your pillow was damp because of the tears you cried last night
You tried to be silent all night so you didn't have to wake up Cam.
You hear him move. So you pretend to go to sleep.
He turns over and kisses you on the forehead. You pretend that you have just woken up. He sees the dampness on your pillow.
And realises straight away you haven't slept at all that night. He knew you were worrying about him that night.
He quickly moves towards you and hugs you so tight you can hardly breath. You try to hug him tighter but it's impossible because he's holding you that tight.
He gets up only saying " I'm getting the rest of my bag packed ok coconut".
You give a glimpse to the floor and nod your head. He smiles at you and all you can do is smile back because you love his beautiful smile.
As he goes into the other room. You feel your whole world is falling apart but you can't do anything about it.
You walk into the room Cam is in and hug him from behind.
"Do you want me to make you, one last meal from me" you say
He says grinning okay coconut, I love you so much I'm gonna miss you baby" he says
You say quietly say to yourself that you love him more.
You hurry to the kitchen so you can cry, but not in front of Cam. You cannot cry because you've cried to much.
You start to put the gas on but you can't bring yourself to do anything.
You keep trying to turn the gas on. But you hand keep shaking and won't turn you try and force. Your self but you can't do anything.
Knowing your baby boy. Won't be your baby boy for much longer.
