Different (Sequel to 5V, 5M, 1G, 1D) (One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter 10

so, i'm back

you can all hit me later, just read the chapter which many of you have been waiting for for an awfully long time.

i don't own titanic or any of the songs mentioned.

songs for this chapter:

stitches by shawn mendes

hallelujah by panic! at the disco

locked away by r city, ft. adam levine

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When we hit land, my stomach fills with butterflies. The idea of seeing my loves, my men, the keys to my heart again plossumes until it is a beautiful and rare flower digging its roots into my gut where they transform into sharp knives of doubt which travel up along my body until they reach my throat and come out through my mouth as a gasp. Tears fill my eyes and drip down my cheeks in smooth lines of crystals that glisten in the bright sunlight that beams down on me.

"Lacy, are you alright?" Harry's soft voice comes out rougher than usual, scraping over my body in what would usually be a gentle caress. I turn around to face him, frowning when I notice the dark shadows below his eyes. In all the time that I spent avoiding him and being selfish, I was neglecting his health.

"Are you alright?" I ask him, reaching up and touching the dark circles that are nestled below his emerald orbs. Usually they would be much lighter, a forest green, but tonight they are almost onyx in color.

"I haven't fed in awhile. I'll be alright; I promise," he tries to assure me, giving me a smile that I know is fake and forced, "Lacy, love, come, it is time to get off this dreadful but reliable boat. The others will be here in less than five minutes, I promise."

I nod and watch as Harry disappears momentarily as he jumps up high from the boat and lands on the sand below us. I lean over the edge, smiling as he lands safely. Even though I am still upset by his and the other's uncouth behavior, I could not bear the thought of him lying there injured in a pool of his own blood, his demise caused by his own vampiric powers.

"Jump! I'll catch you I promise!" The handsome man calls up to me, holding out his arms. I nod and swallow thickly, beginning to climb up and over the edge of the boat. My mind flashes to an image of Rose from the movie Titanic climbing over the edge of the luxurious "unsinkable" ship and threatening to commit suicide by throwing her body off the steer and perishing in the dark, icy waters. I chuckle to myself and force the images away.

I close my eyes but only for a moment before I leap off the edge of the ship, holding in my shrieks as my body enters free fall and accelerates at approximately -9.8 meters per second squared, a weird thought while you're facing the prospect of death, I am aware, and then enters Harry's cold and hard arms. Air refills my lungs and my eyes open. I smile a bit, laughing as hysteria creeps onto the edge of my mind. I have leukemia, five vampiric mates, another vampire threatening to kill my mother and the entire world, and I could have died in three seconds, and all of that nonsense would have been for naught, for nothing. There would have been no point of anything that ever happened in my entire life.

"Lacy, are you alright?" Harry cradles me gently, his voice still hoarse from lack of blood. He gives me a wary look, placing me on the sand as if I might have a nervous break down. I close my lips to stiffle my laughter, fighting back the hysteria and facing the real world.

"I'm fine, sorry. I just realized how I could've died and everything in my life, you and the rest loving me, me loving you all, Edward chasing me and threatening to kill everyone I love if I don't return, all of that would have been for nothing if I died just a moment ago," I inform my now startled savior, looking down at my hands. I look up in surprise when I hear a deep growl echo in Harry's chest and throat.

"I will not let you die, not now, not ever," he promises in a deep and menacing voice that is only pronounced by the hoarse tone his voice has taken to using. I open my mouth to respond but am cut off by a voice that I haven't heard in an awfully long time.

"Are we interrupting something?" Louis asks from behind Harry. I move away from Harry, my shaking hand flying up to tremble at my mouth as I stare at two of the four boys, men, that I have not seen in what feels like a lifetime.

"Come here, darling," Zayn holds out his arms, a bittersweet smile crossing his visage. I let out a cry, I can not determine if it is one of happiness or one of sadness, and race to them, grabbing onto anything I can touch when I reach them. Sobs begin to reek havoc on my chest and throat, thick, heavy tears flowing freely from my eyes. I feel two sets of arms hug me, a third soon after. Kisses and murmurs and whispers are pressed against me through the embraces shared between me and them. My body is on fire, urging me to be closer and closer to them. The tightening in my chest that I have felt since the beginning of our seperation begins to losen until it only has about half of the strength it used to possess. Thank you, thank you, God, I manage to think as my mind races at a mile a minute, images and blurs and whirls of color swirl throughout my thoughts, never slowing, never ceasing.

"I love you, I love you all so much," are the first words that leave my mouth throughout the cries and even then, they are not full words, they are broken apart by my sadness and helplessness I feel over my entire life.

"Shh, shh, baby, shh it's gonna be okay, I promise," Louis whispers in my ear, wetness falling onto the shell of it from what I can only assume is his eyes as he cries softly.

"The others, the others, where are they? Where are Liam and Niall? Where's my mom?" I manage to make out, my mind attempting to make clear and concise words pop out of my mouth. I back up a bit from the three men, as much as it pains me to do so, I need to get some space or I'll collapse.

"They haven't checked in with us since we split up. They're supposed to call us when they get your mom," Zayn tells me softly, blinking away tears that obviously are not meant to be there.

"My mom, she might be dead!" I cry, hysteria filling my voice for the second time today. My hand flies up to my mouth once more, shaking like a leaf but for a different reason this time. My mom, the person who brought me into this cruel world and cared for me since that day, she might be cold, lifeless, drained of blood at Edward's feet.

"Lacy, I can promise you, she's not dead," Harry attempts to assure me, his arm reaching out to touch my hand. I rip it away from him, doubt filling up my lungs and taking over my emotions. He and the others lied before, he could be lying now.

"How can I even trust you all? You have hurt me so badly!" I scream at them, my body aching for their touch and comfort. I ignore their pleas and stumble away into the forest, running as fast as I can away from the monsters that hold my heart.

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um, so there you go. i am so sorry it holds such little content, considering the hiatus i have been on. i really have no idea how long it has been since i put those other stories up for adoption. i will have to go and check, make myself aware of the dates. i can't even remember the last time i updated this story as well. must have been a year ago or something like that. i really am sorry to all of you, and i hope you can forgive me at some point.

um, please don't murder me. comment and vote if you would like, as well as following me. you don't have to. i know i've lost quite a bit of you all, and i am dreadfully sorry about that. i hope you all can forgive me.

expect another update tomorrow or tuesday.

-mh