Different (Sequel to 5V, 5M, 1G, 1D) (One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

A/N: I have no idea why the words have no spaces in the summary. This problem has occurred before, and I have no idea why it occurs. Bear with me, and if this chapter has no spaces as well, I apologize. If someone could tell me in the comments why this happens, it would be great.

I don't own the copyrights of the song used in this chapter. If one of you can guess where this song us from, then the next chapter will be dedicated to you! Here's a hint: It is from a movie that has an actual historic princess in it. It is also a cartoon movie.

This chapter is dedicated to CherryGoHome. Go follow her!!! She's amazing!!!

Songs for this chapter:

Right Now by One Direction

Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne

When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne

Half a Heart by One Direction

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Chapter 1

Pain. Pain is all I feel. Everything else is numb. I can't feel anything besides pain. There is pain in my heart and pain in my head. I hear their voices all the time. The five beautiful angels that changed me. They try and talk to me in my head every day. I try to ignore them, but it's getting harder and harder. My mother is the only thing that is keeping me sane right now.

My mom makes me get up and take a shower. She makes sure I eat. She tries to help me sleep by giving me herbal sleeping remedies, but they don't work. I can't sleep, and I when I rarely do, my dreams are filled with nightmares about my five angels. I am trying to move on, to forget them. I'll never be able to, I'm afraid. That scares me, the fact that I will probably end up crawling back to them, whimpering their names.

My mother has told me that they aren't doing much better. I discourage it, but she has kept in contact with the boys. She asks me everyday if I would like to talk to them on the phone, and everyday my answer is the same. I know that if I hear their voices through the phone in real life, I will crack. At least when I hear it in my head, I can pretend like it's not real. My mother is worried for my sanity though. She is almost at the point that she is going to admit me to a mental hospital. I know that she will bring the boys here before she does anything that rash, though, and because of that, I have to pretend to be okay.

I haven't cut myself or tried to commit suicide. I know that if I did that, then everything that I worked for would go down the drain. I couldn't bear to put my mother through that kind of pain, and even though it seems like I don't care about the boys, I wouldn't be able to put them through that pain as well. I still love them with everything that is in me, my whole heart and soul, and I wish desperately that they were here with me. They lied to me though, about something to big and to important to keep to themselves, and because of that I must keep them from me.

It hurts so much. I don't know how much pain I will be able to endure. I know that it is the mating bond, trying to coax me back to the boys. I refuse to do that.

Princess, please come back, I hear Niall's heartbreaking voice. It cracks and sounds so miserable that I almost break.

Please, baby, I need you. We need you, Zayn informs me, his voice sounding relatively the same. I can hear sobs in the background, and I almost crack again. I try to block out the voices in my head, and I start to cry in frustration.

"Lacy, can I come in, baby?" My mother asks, rapping her knuckles on my open door. I nod, and she enters, sitting next to me on the floor. She hands me the phone in question, and I know immediately what is going to come out.

"Do you want to talk to them?" She asks me, and I know exactly what I am going to say next. No, I think to myself. The same answer everyday.

"Yes," I answer before I can stop myself, my voice coming out hoarse and hollow. My mother's face breaks out into a genuine smile, one I haven't seen since I arrived on her door step a month ago.

"Hold on, boys. Lacy is going to talk for a few minutes," my mother informs the five boys. Not wanting to go against my words, I take the phone from her, almost crying in relief when I hear the five voices on the other end of the call.

"Lacy, oh baby thank goodness!" Harry speaks first.

"Hi," I answer, my voice cracking. I lick my lips, and I cough to try and relief some of the soreness of my throat. I wince when I swallow. My throat is still in pain.

"Baby, you sound horrible. Where are you? We will come and get you," Liam promises, and I start crying when I hear his voice.

"N-no," I stutter through my tears, clenching the phone like it's a lifeline. My mother smiles and rubs my back, trying to relief some of the tension that has built up in the past month.

"Princess, are you alright? Have you hurt yourself at all?" I hear Niall's voice. This is the breaking point for me, and I lose it. I cry out their names, heart wrenching sobs coming from my chest. I hold into the phone and my mother, crying into her shirt. My mother takes the phone from my hand, whispering some words to the boys.

"We love you!" They all shout out before my mother hangs up the phone. I hold onto her, and I don't let go until I have stopped crying. It feels like hours have passed when I finally calm down. My mother pulls back the covers of my bed, and she helps me in. She tucks me in just like she used to do when I was a child. She strokes my hair, singing a lullaby to me. I remember her doing this to me every night when I was a kid.

"Dancing bears,

Painted wings,

Things I almost remember,

And a song,

Someone sings,

Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm,

Horses prance through a silver storm,

Figures dancing gracefully,

Across my memory."

I fall asleep to the sound of my mother finishing this lullaby. I can only hope that the pain will be numbed as I sleep, and that it will be lessened as I start another day tomorrow.

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A/N: There you guys go. The first chapter of the sequel. Please vote and comment as it means so much to me! Thank you all! I love you all!

-MH