Fighting To The End

It's Ok To Not Be Ok

Finally I've came to a decision about ending this book there will be six more chapters after this one.
But...... I'll write a Eulogy book tho Two parts ten chapter's a piece, I think this book is to long to add more so I won't
But, It'll be great I promise.

Please Excuse All Mistakes and Don't forget to bout vote and comment

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November 24

Amber POV

After getting the news about Tyson dying from a heart attack I had totally why numb. I didn't know how to feel, he was the only dad I've known since I was eight year's old. I wanted to cry but I couldn't, I had to be strong for all of us, Bee was loosing it and Carey to. Jay was trying to keep it together but I know he's hurting, Ron hasn't really said much at all, so I had to be strong!

"Amber baby are you ok?" Carey ask me.

I hadn't realized that I was still standing at the bottom of stairs were I was getting the kid's get ready to watch TV while I made breakfast.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I snapped out of my thoughts walking off, going to the kitchen.

I didn't want them to see me hurting and take away from them because Tyson wasn't my biological father, so I could hold it in and be strong.

"Amber talk to me baby." I opened the refrigerator pulling out food to cook for everyone.

"About what? I'm find ma" I lied. She shook her head coming over to me.

"Put the beacon down Smiley and tell me how you're feeling." Carey took the beacon sitting on the island having my hand's.

I turned my head while biting my bottom lip forcing back my tears, I couldn't cry I just couldn't.

"I'm fin-"

"Don't say you fucking fine again when I know you're not! He was your dad baby."

"Not biologically, so I can't have a brake down I gotta be strong for my sister and my fiancé." She looked at me like she wanted to smack the hell out of me.

"If Tyson would have heard you say that he would've kicked your ass. You're his child to, he was the crazy about you just like he was about the other three" she told me.

"I- ca- he's gone!" Was all I could say before the tears started flowing down.

This was the first time I've cried since finding it yesterday evening and now I was letting it all out, finally. Carey pulled me into a tight hug rubbing my back, letting me get it all.