Kellin Quinn's Daughter!?!? ☆fanfic☆

Taste Of Revenge

《 Kayla's point of view. 》

I woke up in some house, which I didn't know. Only to be in a bed of whom I didn't know either. That's when I turned and looked  next to me to see Vic passed out. 

Oh, yeah I forgot... I'm giving him another chance?

What was I thinking last night, he's 30 and i'm 15. He's just gonna use me, there's no way in hell a 30 year old man could love a little 15 year old girl. He only want's one thing, and it's not love, love means there's passion with the sex. He doesn't have love for me, it's lust. All he wants is sex, nothing more. I can't let myself get hurt again. So I guess i'll just have to hurt him before he could even try to hurt me.

I hate him so much,  but at the same time I hate myself just as much. He made me feel so depressed to the point were I needed pill to be happy. I'm not ever gonna be the same, i'm always going to need to take those chemicals to fix me. But I really don't think I can be fixed, i'm too broken for that. I'm so broken that at one point I even drank bleach. Most people would say it was because I wanted attention from everybody. Others would say it was because I wanted to kill myself and die. But that's not true, that's not the reason why I did it. I'll admit a little part of me did it to feel something because I felt to numb to the outside world, and I knew for a fact I would feel the burning sensation going down my throat. But the real reason was because I felt so used and dirty, that I just wanted to be clean. Or at least feel clean. 

So one day, when my mom wasn't home I went into the bathroom. Pulled the bleach from the cabinet under the sink. Dumped it into the the bathtub next to me. Then got into the tub, in full clothing. I just sat the for awhile, moving my legs around in the bleach. And watched as it literally took the black right out of my skinny jeans, leaving them a white-ish color. It was fascinating to watch to be honest, it made me think that if it could so easy take the darkness out of my jeans. Couldn't it do the same to me.

And within the count of three, I went under the bath of bleach. Keeping my mouth open, letting the bleach in my mouth. Basically chocking on it. I stayed under there for about two minutes before everything went black.

Next thing I knew I was in a hospital bed with a whole bunch of tubes leaving and entering my body. And with a long tube going down my throat. It was so hard to breath, and my whole body was acing. I looked over to see my mom just laying there asleep. She looked stress to the max. It was because of me. And out of the corner of my i saw my hair was pure white/grey.

I guess i over did it 

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Hope you liked it -Selena