The day continues, until the beautiful sound of the dismissal bell is heard.
My routine after school is let out is to go to my "haven", the garden a couple miles away from the school. Its a place Jesse and I found when we were 7, running around and driving everyone crazy. We took the wrong route home, only to find ourselves in a tunnel of flowers with a small light blue bench. Ever since then, I'd go there to clear my head when it felt like everything was crashing down in a huge heaping pile.
Today, it was just me, as Jesse had other plans. I had thought about ditching detention, but I knew Mr Vargas would probably tear me to shreds if I did. I decided to take the whole 10 minute bathroom period to gather all my thoughts.
I began thinking about how everyone perceives me, the young tough girl who doesn't care what everyone says cause she'll knock them out. But, if Im being honest, its just a mask. Inside, im really a passionate softy who takes in every word said, then shuts it out. I feel like its because Ive built up a layer of thick skin over the years. Parents always gone, nasty comments coming in left, right, and center, you begin to become a rock. You become bulletproof, almost immune to flying rumors and drama. I thought about my family, how disconnected it is. I thought about my childhood, running excitedly into the master bedroom after school, wanting to rant about my day, only to find it empty. My sister, who was my only source of support and happiness, always there to comfort me after bursting into tears once again. I remembered how my face would be hot and red, and the feeling of betrayal, and the unrealistic promise I made myself that night.
I promised that the people in my life will be perfect, and they wont ever betray me.
Wouldn't that be amazing.
I check the time, 2:14. Break ends in 6 minutes.
If I leave right now, Ill probably make it.
I bid farewell to my haven, and farewell to my troubles.
Well, not all my troubles, as I still have to face Mr. Vargas.
2:15: Out of the garden.
2:16 : Waiting on a time ticking crosswalk to change its colors.
2:17 : Literally sprinting across the street.
2:18 : Stepping foot on campus, out of breath.
2:19 : "Fast- Walking" over to the library, cause the staff is giving me dirty looks.
2:20 : Face to Face with Mr. Vargas, who is ready to question the out of breath, flustering teen that is rushing to the library.
"Attempting to ditch detention, Ms. Woods?"
"I would never! I just needed to .. make sure my parents know" One Huge Fat Lie
"Okay Then, go find a place to sit, and work productively" All said while checking me in.
I sit near the back, open my current read, Looking For Alaska by John Green, and settle down.
Only to be greeted by a hazel-eyed brunette with a Diamond Co. sweatshirt.
Somebody save me.
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Finally!! Winter Break has come. I hope you have an amazing and eventful break.
Also Merry Christmas!! I hope you got everything you wanted.
If you didn't celebrate, I hope you had a good day.
Love You!
Thanks For Reading <3
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