play the song on the side.
Prince(pov): smoked my first pack of cigarettes today. been along time since iv gone throguh this kind of heart break. its a cold unforgiving world if i do say. this morning when i woke up. i found paris body laid lifeless across the bathroom floor. i sat in the emergency room as i prayed and prayed that she would make it but sometimes prayers don't always work. i found that out the hard way. people say everything happens for a reason, well if god had a number i would call him and ask him why did this have to happen to me again. this is the second time a girl's death had something to do with me. this is all my fault. if i wouldn't have walked away from paris last night then she wouldn't be dead right now. this is like a remake of what i went through years ago with adriana but this time i refuse to live with the guilt. if everybody else can commit suicide, why can't i? i gripped the gun tighter as i paced back in forth through the room. if theres a god then hes calling me back home. this barrel never felt so good next to my dome. its a cruel cold world and i rather die then live alone. its....all...bad...yall. *puts finger around trigger.*
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i tried to add this last paragraph to the other chapter but i accidently published it before i could. well anyways this is the end of 'How can i forgive when it hurts so much' R.I.P mrs carter. R.I.P paris And R.I.P jacob.
i really hope you guys enjoy the story. thanks to my supporters and to anyone who read this story.
"if theres a god then hes calling me back home. this barrel never felt so good next to my dome. its cold and i rather die than live alone." is a tweet freddy E posted before he committed suicide. i put it into my story because it has strong meaning to it. today marks 5 months since freddy's death. he may be dead but never forgotten. R.I.P Freddy E !
