Cannibalism is always nice ~ (Uta x Reader)

My little secret ~

Something about this Uta guy really bugs me, his relaxed body posture, his smirk that rang that he knew all the right secrets. Something about him makes me feel attracted to him. Since meeting Uta we have met twice to drink a cup of coffee and chat about our lives. Mine was more on the down low but I did mention the little things such as the fields of flowers in my yard or that my parents were the same. To be honest I try not talking about how my parents were humans, most people think the worst of me once they find out. Although the one question he asked me really did get me thinking about what our talks meant. Just thinking about my past makes me worried.
'You seem worried (Y/N), may I ask why?'

My body stiffened at the question, why was I worried about him finding about my past.  Other then both my parents being humans I didn't have an exciting life. Uta told me a bit about his though, how he owns a mask shop, he even invited me over to get one myself, says this one is on the house, personally a lot of the masks are kind of creepy I may be a smart ass even a total jerk at times but who isn't in this time and age? In the end though I did end up getting a rough sketch. Even if my mind told me to be a bit more  distant, But honestly that's just how i am, I've been fleeing as long and as much as i can so i can keep safe, so i don't get hurt like last time.

"Personally I'm still trying to figure you out, you seem so relaxed at times that I don't know when to take you seriously." Honesty is best ,at least that's what mother used to say. Walking towards the desk taking a seat in the only available seat next to Uta. He jumped just a bit, anyone getting near him is a no-no apparently. Pushing my luck is something I'm good at though especially with him recently. Ever since we met I've been pushing it a bit closer every time. This time is no surprise to him apparently, since he isn't jumping as bad. 

Uta shifted in his seat as he worked on my mask. The beautiful black outline on the white mask seemed like something simple. With this there is also beading on the under eye, stitching in patches that are grey in color. He says it wont be done for a couple days and that i didn't need to wait, But with nothing else to do for a bit I've decided to stick around till he was done, On one note I was afraid of him but the other I was curious on how he functioned. Barely eating, getting tattoos and piercings seemed to be something he did when he was bored. Making masks was apparently how he payed bills, He detested humans with a passion, thought they were weak and useless, but so did I. Something so simple is pulling towards this man even if i didn't like the thought of getting close to someone this soon especially after 'him'.

The thought of being near him again made you shake, grabbing a hold of your arms you bring your head down and begin to shiver more. The constant beatings, the verbal abuse, even the numerous times he touched you when you didn't want to be. He was a mad man on a rampage on a good day, he was complete hell on bad ones. You never wanted someone like him, but being abandoned, well more like 'sold' to someone was something you never forgot. This one man made you hate every man, hell it made you hate everyone. It took a lot for you to like or even trust another individual. So why were you here with Uta? What made him so special that you almost forget about the past. That makes your past wounds feel ever so slightly better. 

Maybe once in the last 5 years I'm finally able to get someone. Nothings going to  be easy for him of course, but being lonely has some disadvantages. Watching Uta all day has confirmed a few things though. One, he rarely goes out. Two, he hates humans, sees them as feed. Three, he seems to relax around people once he really gets to know them, could be why he still jumps when I get close to him to fast. Being around him makes my defenses go down, and this whats scares me. What if he isn't the guy that I've concluded him to be. What if he was just like 'him'? Although that's what test are for, I guess ill have to stick around some more to see if he really is the person i think he is.

"Your not afraid of me are you?" The soft voice I've come to know pulled me out of my thoughts. Looking up i noticed my eyes has slight tears in the corners. My legs and arms still shaking a bit from the past thoughts. Looking to my right Uta sitting staring into my eyes. The only thing that amazed me was that he had worry in them, as if for some reason he cared for me in a friendly matter. looking back down bringing my sleeves up wiping the couple tears away. 

"I'm fine just thinking about the past. This all seems all unreal, like something I never imagined id have, I'm sorry about the outburst or if I ruined anything from shaking. Things seem unreal for me since the day of the escape, plans have been ruined and people keep betraying me. Life seems to be full of disappointments recently." folding my arms in-front of my chest trying to compose myself. My body began to move to the right as my hair began to get messy as if someone was grabbing it. Trying to regain balance moving my arms to the right holding onto the first thing to me. Looking up my eyes almost couldn't believe what he was doing. Instead of continuing his work, instead of making fun of me for the random outburst he simply brings my head to his chest, resting his own head on top of my own. Holding me as if trying to sooth me. 

"I may not be good at comforting people, nor do I ever do this kinda thing with girls, something tells me that you need a bit of comforting and I've been told things like this help girls. Is it working?" He looks down to look me in the eyes. Nothing but caring was in his eye's. Something about his words made me tear a bit more. Something about this man is breaking me down. As if he was the person i was supposed to meet in the terrible word that the humans control. Gripping my head a bit harder he brought his other arm around my body as I cried. Shaking harder then before wrapping my arms around his torso dipping my head into his chest. Breathing in his scent sent shivers down my spine. 

"I-I-I-I'm s-s-so-rry a-b-bout t-this, I-I'm n-not Usu-ually l-l-ike this." Taking deep breaths i begin to calm down. In all my years since i was abandoned I swore to myself that I wouldn't shed a tear for someone who isn't willing to make me feel like I'm something special. In my years since getting away from that man my body,heart and soul have given up on liking or even loving anything or anyone, But just this one nice gesture from Uta sent me to the deep end, as if he is the key to unlocking my heart from the lock and chain I put on it.  

"Like i said, I'm no were near good at this stuff, But your my friend and I make sure the people I like are not hurt or treated badly by anymore. If you need to talk i guess you can come to me, that is if you want. Its nice having someone around, You being pretty helps a lot though." Uta scratches his chin as if he was giving his last remake a chance to settle in. Out of instinct swinging my arm to hit his chest lightly enough to make him jump. Bringing my arms back into a folding position in front of me. Giving the most evil look i could manage. 

"Why would you say something like that, we just had a moment. Your so mean" whipping my head to the side pouting all I could hear was a chuckle. 

"Don't worry you'll get used to it. I'm full of that kinda sh*t, But don't worry about people finding out about this okay? I would like to ask about your past though, It may be, Interesting to say the least." 

Him asking me about my past scared me, honestly scared me. For all i know he may know 'him' and he might even be friends with him. Not wanting to lose Uta as an 'friend' as he put it I began to think of the possibility that we might have that conversation one day. Looking back to Uta My face seemed a bit lighter then it usually did, smiling even. 

"I have to ask though, for the time being were not to meet in public nor can you walk up to me if we see each other we walk by like we don't know each other, you may come to my shop as often as you like, I can even make a key for when I'm out and you need somewhere to go, I have friends that are very careful about the people they let in. So for now you can be my little secret?"

The fact that I cant know him in public kinda makes me upset, especially with the last couple days I've been with him, but for now it was for the best as I have other objectives at this present moment. Nodding my head looking back at him with a small smile on my face. returning the small smile he turns around back to my mask and begins to stitch more fabric to it, adding the detail that apparently I deserve. 

Your little secret huh? I'm liking the sound of that.