Gay not okay.

Cuting started while my life was going to end..

That night I just stared cutting like crazy and I felt like my life would end.. In my head I would rather end it all tonight.. But I didn't cause I remembered my promise with brendon.. If I die so does he, and so many people love him.. I couldn't ruin his life and kellins and oli's just she's I'm depressed.. Then next day I didn't talk or eat and the night before that I didn't sleep.. I also got a black eye from my fucking "dad". I had to use my moms makeup to cover it up.. web I went to school I completely ignored everyone.. I didn't talk to anyone.. then I remembered I had gym an the sweat would take off the makeup.. I began panicking.. But I just stayed quiet.. I saw kellin walking to me and walked the other direction. he chased me and then funnily caught me.. He told me he was sorry and should have never made a move like that.. I just kept walking but damn I couldn't stop thinking about him . it feels so bad but so good. I just walked to advisory and then math then finally gym.. Kylie was in my class if course.. After we ran Kylie took me under the bleachers.. Se had a bag in her bag. like a small bag. I didn't know what was happening.. then she took out her mirror and showed me my black eye and said, "it's okay, ok what happened, I asked Kellin.." I didn't think he would say, I thought he would be embarrassed.. She then took out makeup and covered it.. Then I said thanks and walked out.. She kissed my cheek and instantly I blushed so hard. she knew I liked her, I mean it want that hard to tell. when I walked out from under I got hugged really hard from behind by Kellin.. I just stopped and looked at him and he picked up my arm covered with brackets and cuts.. He kissed It and said ''babe, I'm here, now we live like we should, together" then he said "baby I promise you someday we'll say oh my god this is paradise" I just hugged him and then we went to the locker room, changed and went to lunch, then went home.. We both slept over at oli's house... To Be Continued
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