Opened Door To Death

People say that if you die like I'm going to, 

That this is what I want to do

Wonders????,

No, pain to others

Maybe I only want to die,

I only ask you to try

To understand why this was hid,

The thing I just did

I knew you would have stopped me,

And would have told me that you and others love me

But really, since when???,

Since a minute or so???,

No! Well why do you keep asking yourself why I did it, then???,

You still don't know???

And of my existence, 

What do they know of this instance

Maybe I want to be forgotten,

Maybe I want this door to open

And take me to death,

With this last breath